tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-68112972011-07-01T22:44:56.837+08:00<i>as the name suggest... this is a sanctuary of his views, thoughts, ideas, frustrations, fantasies and dreams encapsulated in a balloon-like tissue floating within the skull...</i>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.comBlogger861100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-39012757292722516372007-02-15T19:24:00.000+08:002007-02-15T19:31:26.453+08:00Curse 2 A.M. insomnia. I was better off with 6. I’m flooded with thoughts again – career plans, being 16 and 20+, politics, sex, social skills, and all sorts – so teen-age. My extremely superstitious aunt told me as a kid to change positions whenever I had a hard time to get snooze – of course, I didn’t. <p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p>It is so hard to be bum especially when you don’t have resources. Well, I have a PC with a broadband connection, but I’m already sick of it. I just finished downloading a 700 MB movie, boy, and I was disappointed! The story was fine but the script itself was a bit incoherent and slow – not good for a thriller that the movie claims to be. The whole film would have been great if there was a slight mod or addition to the script or to the scenes. It was not a bad movie for a newb like me. Other reviews described it pointless and I believe so because it fails to claim or prove something. I would have changed my point of view if I heard somewhere in between that revealing secrets doesn’t change anything and just humiliates us or it’s all in the mind and who the fuck cares? As a thriller, which I don’t believe it is, you don’t want to spill your twists on the first scene. Or maybe they showed too much on the trailer? Even so, the cast was perfect. I love Camilla Belle now. She’s the most beautiful 21 year old preppy brunette (or is she college now?) I have ever known and I want to marry her when I turn 40. The film was ‘The Quiet’ by ‘I forgot the director’, released as an indie on Feb last year.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p>Getting back, my last post still bugs me. I thought it was just a spur of my active budding 20+ mind. I still have doubts about getting in to real voluntary work, though I’ve been considering visiting ABS-CBN Foundation one of these days. I really don’t know how to move on from there. It’s like a dead end. I will runaway if I had $500, just enough to start a new job as a draftsman or a fireman. Hahaha.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p>It’s v-day today and my sister had received an air freight of a dozen red roses with a box (a heart actually) of Lindt swiss chocolate. Thinking about how much would have cost her guy made me realize how incapable I am right now to have a girlfriend. It didn’t make me sad though. I heard my dad joking around my mother to ask me to recycle the flowers and give to someone else tomorrow – lame – it made me laugh really.</p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-3901275729272251637?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1166936678581349632006-12-24T12:46:00.000+08:002006-12-24T13:04:38.596+08:00CLICK <a href="http://www.doctorathome.com/love/love.php?e=u5_twjsow516@fg54--bj-y">HERE</a>!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-116693667858134963?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1127908339259324062005-09-28T19:14:00.000+08:002005-09-28T19:52:19.280+08:00marami na "ulit" ang nag-bago, marami na "naman" ang nangyari, at sa sobrang dami, hindi ko na nagawang isulat. sana ito na ang huli... sana ito na ang huling "pinakamalaking pagbabago sa buhay ko", medyo sawa na 'ko... pero ngayon masaya ako... kahit pa may mga kahilingan akong natupad na sa huli eh pinagtawanan ko lang yung sarili ko kung bakit ako humingi ng ganun... masaya ako kahit malungkot... tahimik na ang buhay ko kahit maingay ang paligid... basta ang mahalaga, masaya ako... astig, kasi walang dahilan... bumagsak man ako, wala akong dapat sisihin... madapa man ako, matatawa na lang ako... sana ngayon, totoo na... pero hindi ako aasa, matutuwa na lang ako kung anong meron... sana eto na ung huling pagkakataon na magiging makasarili ako... ayoko ng lokohin ang sarili ko, ayoko ng magkunwari, ayoko ng mangatwiran, ayoko ng magreklamo, masaya na ako kung anong meron ako, mas sasaya na lang ako kapag may dumagdag pa, problema man o swerte... at yun ang mahalaga... ayoko muna mag-isip... kung anong nandyan, yun muna ang unahin... pwede namang "background" lang ang "future"... may pangarap naman ako... at kabisado ko na... di ko na kailangang mangarap araw-araw... basta nandyan lang yan... sasakmalin lang ako kung kelan handa na ko... ang paalala lang nya sakin eh mag-enjoy ako... ngayon handa na kong kalimutan ka, hindi ako nalulungkot, ayoko na sa'yo! pero salamat sa mga tinuro mo... marami yun... hindi kita kakalimutan, itatago lang kita... gagamitin lang kita pag kailangan ko na... hindi ka pwedeng magreklamo, swerte ka pa nga... pero simula ngayon, wala ka nang kinalaman sa kung ano man ang pwedeng mangyari sakin, inaalisan na kita ng karapatan... tulad ng ibang nabasa kong libro, isang kabanata ka lang, di ko man maalala yung mismong mga salitang nasa loob mo, naaalala ko pa rin ang kwento mo, mga tinuro mo... dito sa blog na ito ka matatapos, isang kabanata ng buhay ko... pero siyempre kung may matatapos, may magsisimula rin... abangan nyo na lang...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-112790833925932406?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1123239847541926832005-08-05T18:39:00.000+08:002005-08-05T19:50:12.796+08:00I'm not God... I couldn't even be One...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-112323984754192683?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1122302235663102752005-07-25T22:22:00.000+08:002005-07-25T23:59:51.000+08:00<strong>ako: </strong>la kang kwentang friend!<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>alam ko<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ikaw kasi meron eh<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>lahat kau meron<br /><strong>patient101: </strong><br /><strong>patient101: </strong>thanks for the compliment<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>i appreciate it<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>alam kong busy ka..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>make everything good<br /><strong>ako: </strong>di kaya..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>ay...tama pala..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>see..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>eh...<br /><strong>ako: </strong>feeling ko kc..wala na kong mcyadong tme..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>di ko n nga maentrtain ung srili kong mga desires..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ah<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kaya mu yan<br /><strong>ako: </strong>kaya ko nga..<br /><strong>ako:</strong> lam mo ba...prang walang tumutulong sakin..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>ako lang lahat..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kaya mu naman eh<br /><strong>ako: </strong>onga...pero mahirap...mraming kailangan isacrifice...lalo na mga pansariling kaligayahan...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>shesh<br /><strong>ako: </strong>yuck...drama...haha...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>yaan mo na ko..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>tulad ng ginagawa ng iba sa akin??<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>hahah<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sure<br /><strong>ako: </strong>tulad ng ginagawa ng iba sa akin?? <----ano? patient101: yaan mo na ko..-------->yan!<br /><strong>ako: </strong>ahhhh...<br /><strong>ako: </strong>iba naman ung sayo eh..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>kapag lasing ka, ganun ka!<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>anu?<br /><strong>ako: </strong>wahahahaha<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kahit di ko magets<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>cge<br /><strong>ako: </strong>sabi ko....cnasabi mo lang un pag lasing ka ....<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ang alin?<br /><strong>ako: </strong>"pabayaan nyo na ko"<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ahesh<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>bkit klan ko ba sinabeng wag?<br /><strong>ako: </strong>hhehehe<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>wala kang masabe<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>pale<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>busy ka..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>salamat sa panahon..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>goodluck<br /><strong>ako: </strong>bat ka ba ganyan...wag ka nga mcyadong magtampo..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>nakakainis..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>alam ko<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>maski ako naiinis sa sarili ko<br /><strong>ako: </strong>alam mo naman pala eh... di ako mutant para gawin ang lahat ng bagay ng sabay-sabay...sana malaman mo un..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ok<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kaya nga eh<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sila na lang...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sila na ang asikasuhin mo<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>salamat<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kaibigan<br /><strong>ako: </strong>ano bang cnasabi mo?<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kaya nga eh<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sila na lang...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sila na ang asikasuhin mo<br /><strong>ako: </strong>anong sila?<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>salamat<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kaibigan<br /><strong>ako: </strong>nagseselos ka ba?<br /><strong>ako: </strong>para sbhin ko sayo....wala kong ginagawang masama...kung ganyan ka lang...eh bahala ka..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong><br /><strong>ako: </strong>ano?<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>may sinabe ba ako?<br /><strong>patient101: </strong><a href="http://danix_3foldcord.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/" target="_blank">http://danix_3foldcord.blogs.friendster.com/my_blog/</a><br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sana may panahon ka<br /><strong>ako: </strong>bbsahin ko para sayo<br /><strong>ako: </strong>ano ba ung problema mo sakin?<br /><strong>ako: </strong>sabihin mo na kasi<br /><strong>ako: </strong>pag magkasama tayo bakit di mo cnasabi..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>wala naman talaga eh<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>feeling ko lang mag-isa ako<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>yunlang<br /><strong>ako: </strong>meron...sabihin mo na<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kaartehan<br /><strong>ako: </strong>wag ka nang malungkot,wag ka ng magisip ng mga ganyang bagay...kasi alam mo sa totoo lang....nakakahawa eh...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ok ok<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>so magsaya na tayo..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>lam mo...gusto kong maging ok....mrami rin akong problema...maging masaya ka naman, kahit para sakin na lang..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>ndi mo kailangang sabihin yan..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>gawin mo..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>di mo yan magagawa overnight...<br /><strong>ako: </strong>pero pilitin mo...<br /><strong>ako: </strong>ayoko na kasing malungkot...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>oo<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>msaya na ao<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>nanuod ako ng sine mag-isa eh<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>hahahaha<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>astig rin..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>hehe<br /><strong>ako: </strong>lam mo salamat sayo...dahil nung nakausap kita nung friday, pinilit kong isiping wala lang ung problema ko.....ayun nagawa ko...sana ikaw rin...magawa mo...<br /><strong>ako: </strong>gustuhin mo kasi...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kasi nakausap mo ako<br /><strong>ako: </strong>pare...alam mo un? gusto mo bang kaawaan?<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kasi may nakausap ka..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ako meron ba??<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kung nalalaman mo..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>wala<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>todong wala..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ikaw marami kang pwedeng kausapin<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ako sobrang konti<br /><strong>ako: </strong>eh nung friday?hindi ba tayo nag-usap?<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>busy pa at may mga sariling buhay<br /><strong>ako: </strong>please naman...grow up nga...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sorry<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ang yabang mo<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>nakakaasar<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ka<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>hindi mo ako natutulungan<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>dinadagdagan mo<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>salamat ha???<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>as in salamat<br /><strong>ako: </strong>bahala ka....kung kikitidan mo ung isip mo, at iisipin mong minamaliit kita...bahala ka...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ano bang ginagawa mo?<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>try to be sensitive enough to understand<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>please??<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>i don't need any anger or rebuke from anyone right now<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>i just need someone to talk to<br /><strong>ako: </strong>gusto kong isipin mo muna ung ssbhin mo....nakikita mo ba ung sarili mo? kahit ikaw sa sarili mo, ssbhin mo ung mga cnasabi ko....<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>the least thing i need right now is a fight with anyone..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>kung kailangan mo ng makakausap...andito naman ako ah...bakit kailangan pang magalit ka sakin, pagselosan ung mga ginagawa ko...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sorry<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>i just hate myself<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>that's it<br /><strong>ako: </strong>kung meron mag dapat maka-feel nyan....ndi ikaw yun.... alam mo ba un?<br /><strong>ako: </strong>may diyos ka, bakit mo nasasabi ung mga ganyang bagay?<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>kaya ng eh<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sorry<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>hindi ako [erfect<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>i also feel this way<br /><strong>ako: </strong>chong, ayusin mo nman ung prblema mo..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sige<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sorry<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sory tol<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>il be fine..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>wag mong isiping ikaw lang ung may problema..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>wala namanag mgyayari eh..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>wag kang maging makasarili...ndi lang ikaw ung tao sa mundo...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ok<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>thnks<br /><strong>ako: </strong>sana totoo yang "thanks" na yan...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>oo<br /><strong>ako: </strong>baka mamaya, mabasa ko n nman ung sarili ko...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>san ba yung sarili mo dun?<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>san ka dun??<br /><strong>ako: </strong>bsta...kung di man ako yun...tinatamaan ako<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>wag kang guilty<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>since wala akong makausap ng matino..eto na lang..galit ako.hindi ko alam kung saan..siguro sa sarili ko.sabi nung prof namin sa ethics, how you treat other people is the way you treat yourself..ngaun, galit ako sa mga tao..siguro dahil galit ako sa sarili ko...ewan.gusto ko na patawarin sarili ko...gusto ko na pero naiinis talga ako..malungkot sa bahay..ako lang palagi mag-isa..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>alam mo pala ung problema mo eh...eh di gumawa ka ng paraan para masolb ung problema mo..<br /><strong>ako: </strong>eh di lumabas ka..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>hindi mo ksi binasa lahat kaya hindi mo naintindihan<br /><strong>ako: </strong>ang alin<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>yung blog ko<br /><strong>ako: </strong>may gusto kong sbhin sayo<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ano?<br /><strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">BUZZ!!!<br />BUZZ!!!</span> </strong><br /><strong>ako: </strong>hindi mo kasi kailangangan ng mga taong iintindi sayo, kasi walang makakagawa nun kundi sarili mo lang... kaya hindi dapat sumama ung loob mo kung may mga taong ndi nakakaintindi sayo, oh ayaw makinig sayo, dahil ung mga taong yun eh may mga sarili ding problema... na ayaw pang mangialam ng buhay ng iba para dagdagan pa ung sarili nilang problema, sana maisip mo yun mabuti....chka wag kang magmadali....wag kang buzz ng buzz, ok?!<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>hahahahahahaha<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ok ok<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>salamat dude<br /><strong>ako: </strong>kung gumawa ka ng blog para may ibang taong makabasa ng buhay mo, eh sobrang mali ung reason mo.... sana maisip mo na para sa sarili mo un, at hindi mo ginagawa para sa iba...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>yun yung gagawin ko talga<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ok<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>salamat pare<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>salamat<br /><strong>patient101: </strong><br /><strong>ako: </strong>chka isa pa.... wag ka rin makikinig sa ibang tao.... kasi ung sinasabi nila eh effective sa kanila... hindi mo cgurado kung effective din un sa yo...iba-iba ang tao, may iba-ibang paraan para sumolb ng problema...pwdeng mas higit pa dun sa pinayo sayo o mas kulang, depende na rin un sayo...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>ok ok<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>pare<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>malupety ka ha??<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>apir!<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>hehe<br /><strong>ako: </strong>may bayad toh, 1000 per hour...<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>hahaha<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>apir<br /><strong>ako: </strong>ok na?<br /><strong>ako: </strong>mahirap maging therapist..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>nu pa?<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>yupee..<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>hahaha<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>bagay sa <a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v321/patrick49/136.jpg">pic</a> mo loko<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>haha<br /><strong>ako: </strong>ibblog ko ung pinagusapan natin<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>wushoo<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>haha<br /><strong>patient101: </strong>sige<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-112230223566310275?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1120480350148783222005-07-04T20:28:00.000+08:002005-07-04T20:42:07.826+08:00<p>It's like choosing<br />Between life and death<br />Bliss or grief<br />Forever in heaven<br />Or eternity in hell<br />Only that whatever choice you make<br />You're still heading<br />To the garden<br />That the One had fallen<br /><br />It all seems a deja vu<br />Fear suddenly eats you<br />Your confidence unexpectedly sucked you dry<br /><br />The alarms was raised<br />Yet you can't run<br />The fire of love<br />Yes, can't easily be extinguished<br /><br />See<br />Your soul and heart<br />Devouring by the sharp teeth of love<br />The pain is unbearable<br />Its scream seems a whisper<br />Yet the whisper is deafening<br />You're engulfed by total darkness<br />No one's with you<br />Aid is impossible<br />Help is fiction<br />But the misery is a fact<br /><br />Your established life has already been unclear<br />Already choked by this thing<br />Until when or where<br />Your sleepy eyes<br />Remain in this brain<br />Just don't blame me<br />If my knuckles would've turned white<br />I can't turn back<br />It's not easy as spitting out<br />The damage has been done<br />No cloth can patch things up</p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-112048035014878322?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1120288738855768412005-07-02T14:26:00.000+08:002005-07-02T15:45:06.546+08:00alam ko na kung pano ako magkakaroon ng maraming 'hits'. kailangan ko lang maglagay ng mga popular searches o kaya ng mga words or people or basically anything na 'uso', which is more commonly known as zeitgeist('tsIt-"gIst, 'zIt ). usually, ung mga keywords na 'to ay related sa mga game consoles, techie gadgets, music, nba, and uhmm...ahem... girls!<br /><br />based on the general intellectual, moral, and cultural climate of this era ...sa <br />tingin ko kasama sa sa top 10 zeitgeist of this month ung:<br /><br /> 1. lohan upset<br /> 2. wimbledon<br /> 3. fireworks<br /> 4. maria sharapova<br /> 5. battlefield 2<br /> 6. howard stern<br /> 7. michelle wie<br /> 8. shark attack<br /> 9. nba<br />10. scientology<br /><br />(from Google Inc.)<br /><br />para sa mga pinoy, kailangan (dapat!) mapasama sa top 5 popular girls sina:<br /><br />1. nicole hernandez<br />2. bianca gonzalez<br />3. sarah meier<br />4. francine prieto, at<br />5. gwen garci<br /><br />alam ko na kulang ang 5 sa sobrang dami ng mga girls na worthy for the upper echelons of that stats, hindi pa kasama jan ung mga 'crush ng bayan' pati ung mga campus heartthrobs ng school ko...<br /><br />sa mga game consoles, popular ang:<br /><br />1. xbox 360 <br />2. runescape <br />3. sony psp hacks <br />4. ps3 <br />5. psp<br /><br />sa totoo lang, hindi ako masyado familiar sa mga yan kasi hindi naman ako nerdy na gamer.<br /><br />ung last eh mga cartoons at tv shows, kasama sa top 5 ang:<br /><br />*simpsons<br />*southpark<br />*spongebob squarepants<br /><br />(kasama rin yan sa top 5 ko, personally...)<br /><br />ayan...sana sa post na toh, dumoble na ung 'hits' ko... lmao...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-112028873885576841?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1120292605836143332005-06-30T00:00:00.000+08:002005-07-02T16:23:25.843+08:00<br /><a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/tests/lunatics/">Which Historical Lunatic Are You?</a><br /><a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/tests/lunatics/"><img src="http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/tests/images/lunatics/l.jpg" title="I'm Ludvig II, the Swan King of Bavaria!" alt="I'm Ludvig II, the Swan King of Bavaria!" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/tests/apocalypse/">Which Survivor of the Impending Nuclear Apocalypse Are You?</a><br /><a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/tests/apocalypse/"><img 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Look like horse." alt="Me hard man. Look like horse." border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/toys/testgen/94/">Just How Interesting Are You? today!</a><br /><a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/toys/testgen/94/"><img src="http://stat.rumandmonkey.com/tests/4/9/94/270.jpg" title="I'm Just a Tad Boring" alt="I'm Just a Tad Boring" border="0" /></a><br />I'm Just a Tad Boring<br /></p><div>People don't avoid you, but they don't exactly flock to hear your stories, either. You could stand to be a little more intriguing. Try wearing a red cloak, carrying a sword, and speaking only in French. If that fails to spice things up, try building your house entirely out of popsicle sticks.</div><br /><br><br><small>All created with <a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/">Rum and Monkey</a><a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/toys/testgen/"></a>.</small><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-112029260583614333?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1119800314843969412005-06-26T18:25:00.000+08:002005-07-01T23:11:28.816+08:00in the past few weeks, i've noticed something really, really odd. so oddly wicked that it consumes a lot of people's innocent minds... you might not notice it, or you may see it weird for me to notice it but it is really quite disturbing and a bit disconcerting. the stress brought by the activity of neurons in my head strictly intended for this strange trend is really incomparable. everyone <em>must</em> have noticed its increasing popularity among the common public, and its escalating status among the elite. i always ask myself and even seek the guidance of sociology scholars and some known anthropology specialists <em>(not to be taken literally)</em> on how such thing could be possible in such span of time. it just really bothers me... why is it that on every street i cross, in every establishment i go, and even vendors of 'balut', its impossible not to see someone wearing a PINK shirt!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111980031484396941?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1119603563692810532005-06-24T16:53:00.000+08:002005-06-24T16:59:23.696+08:00<a href="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v23/akireus/friendster.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px;" src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v23/akireus/friendster.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><br /><br />so this was what my sister's ranting about... anyways, i can't blame her... lol... hahaha...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111960356369281053?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1119522587163817102005-06-23T16:30:00.000+08:002005-06-26T18:18:32.640+08:00i'm still not in a "blogging-mood" right now... i have to admit, though its embarassing to let you all know that all of my recent posts during the summer break were all taken from i-wouldn't-tell-what-or-where-i-copied-that, for some copyrighting reasons, but it was specifically addressed to me so i'm not guilty of fraud or whatever... <br /><br />it's just that i feel like a peanut-head if i don't do anything with this brain-draining journal. anyway, i wanted to thank Jessica Zafra for waking my sleeping head. it came to me, after reading her latest publication "Tw7sted" on the chapter about Neurocising that i must do something about the dormancy of my dull and monotonous life. so here i am!<br /><br />last night, after school, i headed straight home... during my daily regular siesta inside the bus, i felt a sudden chill... the moon's full, the rain had just stopped, no sound pollution caused by beeping cars and traffic, there were few people (and cars)... almost nothing... it just felt different...<br /><br />i noticed that i had a pretty sitmate, based on her school uniform, i gathered that she's from UST. it was freezing inside the bus, and i see that the girl beside me was cold... i kind of thought how's it to be so 'kind' and be gentleman. So, i asked her if she's cold, then as soon as she said yes... i adjusted the aim of the air conditioning hole to myself... it felt good, really... she smiled... and seems to wanna' have some little talk...<br /><br />though it was freezing, i managed to feel nothing at all... she kind of reminds me of the pond's ad girl 'nicole hernandez' (see the ad in the northbound side of SLEX). damn! she's so cute in it!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111952258716381710?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1119540308190125142005-06-21T23:09:00.000+08:002005-06-23T23:25:08.196+08:00i feel like a total wrecking-moron...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111954030819012514?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1119023014514304302005-06-17T23:42:00.000+08:002005-06-17T23:49:54.156+08:00Sleepless nights<br />Caffeine occupied veins<br />I've been dumped again<br />Nothing else but the radio<br />My only nocturnal company<br />Feeling numb but in pain<br />Don't run down on me again<br />Do anyone even care<br />Or even know where I am<br />Darkness consumes me again<br />My psyche tramples me flat<br />Numb now, only an evidence of fallen tears<br />I'm tired of resentment<br />Leave me not, abandon me not<br />But I can't do anything<br />It's always you, never me<br />No laughter, didn't even dare to amuse me<br />Only an invisible pain<br />A scar that can't be erased<br />Unconscious of the knife that stabbed me<br />Please, bring me back what you've taken<br />That's the only thing left <br />Ignored the sign<br />Compelled my heart<br />I hate this<br />I thought I'll never be here again<br />I cast, I said, I swore...<br />My knuckles already turned white<br />Now I'm drowning in my sleep<br />I'm cold<br />There's nothing I can do<br />No one can turn anything back...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111902301451430430?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1115255728820682502005-05-05T09:04:00.000+08:002005-05-05T09:15:28.873+08:00Are you still speaking your mind without thinking about the consequences? If the answer is yes, don't be too hard on yourself. Every now and then, we're all entitled to be reckless. That, of course, goes double for me...<br /><br />For two straight weeks, I just can't seem to stop myself from going on at length -- big time. I'm so darned chatty, in fact, that even people who knows me well may end up exchanging glances. That's nothing new for me, of course. To be perfectly honest, I love to surprise, startle and amaze the masses. At the moment, though, there may be a reason for all this verbal energy. Am I nervous of something?<br /><br />The Bottom Line...<br /><br />"Eschew anything stuffy or formal. Embrace the scruffy and independent."<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111525572882068250?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1114919529205504172005-05-01T11:41:00.000+08:002005-05-01T11:52:09.206+08:00I've never been good at taking orders from anyone. That goes double for the calendar, which means I often forget birthdays and deliberately ignore some holidays. But if I see something I know would bring a smile to the face of a significant other, i'll mortgage the house to get it for them. And when someone I love needs some TLC -- like now, for example -- you'll treat them so well, they'll think it's a holiday...<br /><br />"All that knowledge can be turned to wisdom if you go ahead and share what you know."<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111491952920550417?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1114612964787441462005-04-27T22:30:00.000+08:002005-04-27T23:20:41.693+08:00Still thinking about how to get in touch with someone from a far-off place who's absolutely fascinating... Bet I have! Bet I won't stop until I reach them, either -- and I shouldn't. Keep at it dude! She's worth it!<br /><br />That exotic new acquaintance you've made? You know the ONE?! You've been thinking about them for days. Well, they've been thinking, too, and thinking all the same things about you: that you're different, interesting and fun. So what's the holdup? Get in touch with them and let them know how you're feeling -- subtly, of course. No gushing.<br /><br />It's not just probable, it's inevitable, and you know it! Your secret wish can come true!!!<br /><br />enerygy meter:<br /><br /> money: 5/5 coins<br /> love: 4/5 hearts<br />attitude: 5/5 stars<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111461296478744146?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1114533725841058042005-04-27T00:14:00.000+08:002005-04-27T00:42:05.843+08:00i takes a second<br />for one to change his life<br />like a french kiss<br />a wrong decision<br />or an unstopped org*sm?!<br /><br />it takes a second<br />for one to say yes<br />or probably a no<br />and after that<br />nothing's the same anymore<br /><br />it takes a second<br />for one to go anywhere<br />a place where he pleases<br />in our dreams<br />somewhere we didn't know exists<br /><br />it takes a second<br />for me to show how i feel<br />to say something<br />to do something<br />i wished i didn't even dare<br /><br />and it takes a full second<br />for me to say<br />that i need you<br />because I Love You...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111453372584105804?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1114028338834703232005-04-21T04:10:00.000+08:002005-04-27T22:27:01.593+08:00I've been thinking about this for days -- weeks, even. Would I stay and try to work this out, or let go of the whole thing and start over? I've laid out all the pros and cons in my mind and I'm still just not sure. Well, talking to a friend about it helps. But in the end, I'll have to make up my mind all by myself...<br /><br />I thought I could never have anything in common with them. Whew!!! I just did surprised myself!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111402833883470323?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1113934538768124842005-04-20T01:28:00.000+08:002007-02-13T15:43:57.760+08:00cool site...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111393453876812484?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1113740999116261402005-04-17T20:29:00.000+08:002005-04-20T00:14:02.820+08:00this is definitely not my day...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111374099911626140?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1113638698620043962005-04-16T15:29:00.000+08:002005-04-16T16:04:58.620+08:00...don't know what i want...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111363869862004396?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1113539713138057332005-04-15T03:00:00.000+08:002005-04-15T12:35:13.140+08:00i was arguing with someone and she suddenly brought this quote up as if she was giving me a discourse and as if she was pointing to something that i did that was so wrong for her... she said "some things are better left unsaid..." i thought in that moment that she was right, i agreed and thought that there will be nothing that'll be more precise than that; but after some time of thinking and figuring things out, it occured to me that i only just said that something because i know it was right and i know it was just something beautiful to say. that's why i rephrased what my friend believed and said to myself "bad things were the ones that must be left unsaid, and good things are much, much way better when they are said..."... what i said was a good thing... it's not that i know what's good or what is bad... but i know it is because it is about LOVE!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111353971313805733?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1113480362514703982005-04-14T19:31:00.000+08:002005-04-15T12:04:36.766+08:00he hasn't been really contented in his life. in one way or another, there's always something missing, something that isn't in the right place. his life has always its dilemma, but luckily, he still had a grasp on that. what pisses him off was this problem of recurrence, it upsets him because these problems have always been followed by another trouble -- it always has an after shock. he knows the fact that life isn't perfect. he knows what to do in almost all situations. he rarely gave up in any obstacle that comes along in every walks of his life. but then, he woke up one day realizing something he himself has never thought of. he thought and realized that he isn't a kid anymore. he's been wondering exactly what's going on with himself lately. well, he must not poke at it too much. he might want it to consider it the heavenly equivalent of winning the lottery and simply enjoy it. he can talk with literally anyone now about literally anything, and make it look easy. that goes double for his communication with friends and colleagues -- especially the ones he's interested in for more than their memos. isn't it right? change could be so indistinguishable that you'll wake up one day realizing you're not the same anymore?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111348036251470398?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1113334459017528612005-04-13T03:14:00.000+08:002005-04-13T03:34:19.016+08:00i'm all grown up?!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111333445901752861?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1113283637785444602005-04-12T13:20:00.000+08:002005-04-12T13:27:17.786+08:001) I am a/an... unfinished creation.<br />2) My ex-boy/girlfriend was... very mad at me when i arrived late on our valentine's date.<br />3) I'm just a... broken-hearted loser. <br />4) Maybe I should... have a shower and eat after.<br />5) I love... myself more than anything.<br />7) Looking for... the answers.<br />8) I don't understand... why some people make a big deal out of something not big.<br />9) I lost my... self when i tried so hard to find you.<br />10) My boy/girlfriend is... all in the mind.<br />11) In darkness, I... sob.<br />12) Why do I... procrastinate?<br />13) Is there such a thing as... the holy grail?<br />14) Does the... end always justifies the means?<br />15) People say I'm... hot and sexy as hell.. Trust me!<br />16) Love is... sometimes over rated.<br />17) You make me wanna... eat like a pig.<br />18) Somewhere, someone is... crying for help, and you sit on your ass reading this.<br />19) Is it true that... chocolates make people happy?<br />20) I will always... gain knowledge and experience in whatever i do.<br />21) Forever is... a timeless domain.<br />22) I never want to... die unhappy.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111328363778544460?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1113157346280068022005-04-11T02:04:00.000+08:002005-04-13T05:14:35.716+08:00starving and helpless<br />gazed by the blessed blind<br />held at gunpoint, torn between choices<br />watch me waste away and ravenous<br /><br />i need only your mercy<br />don't let these frustrations consume me<br />battle these ghosts and monsters<br />may it be dreams or trances<br /><br />exchanging blows almost impossible<br />with the only thing your holding to<br />dear neurotic machine<br />help us save us<br /><br />all the cash gone<br />how will I have you Paul<br />i can't sing with you now<br />the sparrows had flown<br /><br />guardian have you received the SOS<br />aid me circulate this scheme<br />you're the only thing I need<br />the only being I dream<br /><br />envelope me with your shadow<br />i'll have you and I'll taste you<br />betray me<br />the future's in vague.<br /><br />-- me the dumpee<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111315734628006802?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1113131635711488632005-04-10T17:56:00.000+08:002005-04-11T02:30:05.736+08:00if i got one word to describe how i feel right now... it has to be "frustrated-peanut-head-chimp" ...literally not a one word but it means a single thing so thats an exception...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111313163571148863?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1113126088294051312005-04-10T17:20:00.000+08:002005-04-11T02:26:39.366+08:00being bum the whole summer is not me... help?!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111312608829405131?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1111919142450191352005-03-27T18:22:00.000+08:002005-03-27T18:25:42.450+08:00<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v321/patrick49/1106788687loner.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111191914245019135?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1111668709972991822005-03-24T20:32:00.000+08:002005-03-24T20:51:49.973+08:00Enjoy today - it may be your last.<br /><br />You heard me. Thanks to the foolishness of various world leaders, the world is spiralling into a heartless void of painful oblivion. Governments are secretly pitted against governments; international terrorist organisations are remixing the geopolitical landscape to introduce their own hardcore sounds.<br /><br />The result, surely, is widespread nuclear badness. Society as we know it will be ripped apart by the bomb - but some brave people will survive. Could you be one of them? Could you?<br /><br />Yes, enjoy today. You will never know freedom again.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111166870997299182?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1111665679798338422005-03-24T18:54:00.000+08:002005-03-24T20:15:32.856+08:00ain't in a writing mood these past few weeks coz' its been a holy week?! i'll just leave you this...<br /><br />Today was really awful.<br />I got out of bed because I had to throw up. I'm really sick. I mean REALLY sick.<br />I just feel good because today I'll have my lip pierced! Finally! Mom said I could and she's signed the forms and EVERYTHING!<br />I'm so hardcore. Me and Buzz went to the mall today, and I stole a whole heap of stuff. I got a Co &amp; Ca CD, a couple of DVDs and some new Chucks. Buzz got caught, but he fought his way out, and then we stole some lady's car and smashed it into a phone booth. So damn Rock!<br />Last night I had to go and pay Joshua's bail. He's such a jerk. He got arrested for punching the Walmart clerk in the face for refusing to sell him beer. He's only 16!<br />I want to tell the world that I love you all! You're all so special to me!<br />I am sharpening my knives before I go to work today, because I'm going to cut out Robert's heart and feed it to him for losing my mail.<br />Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! But I don't know how to work it. I'll pay a hundred bucks to anyone who can help me...<br />I want to say thanks to the world for absolutely fucking nothing! You all suck. I feel so alone, no one ever reads this journal, or even comments to let me know that I'm not suffering alone. It's cold here, and I want to die, but I cannot figure out how many of you to take with me when I go.<br />I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have prostate cancer, which makes me different enough to be interesting, but the same as all the other cool people with cancer! And bipolar disorder.<br />I haven't been really contented in this life. In one way or another, there's always something missing, something that isn't in the right place. This life has always its dilemma, but I still had a grasp on that, but it's always followed by another trouble – always has an after shock. I know the fact that life isn't perfect. Geez... Life's a living hell!<br />That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm hardcore!<br /><br />currently wasting time...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111166567979833842?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1110553923071408362005-03-11T22:35:00.000+08:002005-03-30T04:01:26.936+08:00andami-dami na namang nangyayari, karamihan bago... sunod-sunod na ung mga pangyayari, mahirap na habulin para isulat pa... eto ung ilan sa mga yun...<br /><br />*naging mas close kami ni kuya luis<br />*naging mas close kami ni JE<br />*naging honest ako kay JE<br />*parang nabawasan ung closeness namin ni JE<br />*malayan na talaga ang mapua<br />*kabisado ko na lahat ng modes ng scaling sa gitara (Aeolian, Dorian, etc...)<br />*nakakapag-compo na ko ng mga guitar solo<br />*halos 500 na ung utang ko sa iba't-ibang tao, 20 kay rapi, 150 kay gaddi, 295 kay kuya luis... tsk, tsk, tsk...<br />*naghahanap ako ng kakaibang gift<br />*alam ko na ung cycle ni JE( kailangan p b tlga?)<br />*malamang bumagsak ako sa signals<br />*nasakin ung project namin sa Electronics na amp, gusto ko i-testing, kaya lang ala akong electric guitar...<br />*last week na namin sa school... magbabakasyon na kami! kahit 1 buwan ayos lang!<br />*di ko pa rin sure kung mag-eenrol ako next term...<br />*mag-aaply kami ni kuya luis sa isang call center sa buendia<br />*kailangan ko ng maraming pera... pambayad ng utang, pambili ng regalo, pang-kain ng marami, pambili ng weights, pambayad sa rent ng boarding house, pambili ng pantalon, ng matinong jacket sa ukay-ukay, ng magandang sneakers... at marami pang iba sana...<br />*kailangan ko rin ng phone... kasi wala akong ginagamit ngayon...<br />*bisita namin sila gebi nung thursday (march 10)... nag-treat kasi si kuya luis... tahimik lang ako... labas-pasok sa kwarto... napansin ni gebi... tinanong ako kung san ako galing... di ko alam ang isasagot... gusto kong mag-usap kami, pero natahimik lang ako...<br />*kailangang lumakas ung loob ko sa mga bagay-bagay...<br />*kailangan kong galingan sa lahat...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-111055392307140836?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1109522621682745762005-02-24T23:59:00.000+08:002005-02-28T00:48:34.380+08:00thursday... ngayon lang ulit ako pumasok... inatake na naman kc ako ng hika... nagsimula toh nung birthday ni matt, nagpa-inom kase cya nung sabado, kala ko ok lang ako... pero nung sunday dun ko na na-feel ung mga symptoms... from monday to wednesday ako hindi pumasok... mejo wala na kong alam kung anong mga ngyayari sa school... ang alam ko lang: hindi pa natatapos ung welga samin at almost two weeks na yun...kainis! sana hindi na lang sana ko pumasok... sana nagpahinga na lang ako... pero ndi rin naman nasayang ung pagpasok ko kase marami rin namang ngyari later that day... 10:30 - 12:00 ung class ko... eh since may mga nghaharang sa school na sinasabing bawal umakyat at pumasok kasi kailangan mag-boycot... hindi na ko nagpumilit, eh may pakiramdam din naman akong wala namang nagkklase... kaya yon... nag-lunch muna ko bago ko bumalik ng boarding house... wala akong naabutan sa kwarto... mga ilang oras pang maguuwian ung mga housemate ko... gusto ko lumabas, gusto ko magyaya ng makakasama sa kung saan-saan... si abi lang ung naiisip ko kasi sila lang ung malapit sa boarding house namin... nakatulog ako sa kakaisip, nakatulog ako na katabi ung gitara...<br /><br />nagising ako sa sobrang init, nag-brownout pala... nangapa ko sa dilim... nahirapan ako maghanap ng kandila at posporo kaya nahiga na lang ulit ako... umaasang bumalik na agad ung kuryente... iniisip ko pa rin na lumabas... nabobored na ko... wala pa rin kase ung mga kasama ko sa bahay... mga alas-siyete na rin ng gabi un... mga ilang minuto ang nakaraan nagkaron din sa wakas ng ilaw... yun na ung signal... lalabas talaga ko ng bahay... naghanda ako agad, naghilamos, nagbihis... lumabas ako at naghanap ng payphone para tawagan c abi sa dorm... c joanne ung nakasagot, sabi nya wala daw c abi... 'naku pano yan...' bahala na lang... c joanne na lang ung niyaya ko, humingi na lang ako sa kanya ng favor para samahan ako kumain muna tapos antayin namin c abi... eh di ayun na nga... hinintay ko c joanne sa lobby ng kassel, pina-intercom ko na cya, kase natagalan ako sa 3 minutes na paghihintay, hehe... bumaba din naman cya kaagad... naalala ko na ngayon lang ulit ung time na nagkita kami after na mag-break kami ni abi mga 7-8 months na ang nakakalipas... nag-iba ung ichura nya... mejo nag-mature, malamang dahil sa stress? mejo nag-gain din cya ng onting weight... and the ass... its so ASSy! haha...kidding jo! :p<br /><br />habang ngddinner ako... kmustahan lang kami... tapos kwento-kwento... asaran... nakakapikon nga ung tawag nya sakin... malayan na daw ako...duh?! sakto nang matapos ako... dumating c abi... ngaun ko lang din cya ulit nakita, mejo pumayat cya... pero ganun pa rin... pretty pa rin... parehas sila ni joanne... :p kaya yun... naging ayos naman, kwentuhan lang kami...asaran pa rin... catch up things... kaya lang sayang... sinundo agad c abi ng ate nya, mga 10 o'clock n rin yun... kaya naiwan tuloy kaming dalawa ni joanne... ganun pa rin... kwentuhan... kakagulat nga eh... kase alam pala nya ung current na love life ko... ung kay ano... ung kay geb?! hehe... marami rin kaming napagusapan kaya lang... as usual... mejo konti lang ung mga sinasabi ko... cya pa rin ung ma-PR na joanne na nakilala ko dati... alang pagbabago!!! pgktapos non, bigla cyang nagyaya sa boarding house namin... nakakagulat ung alok nya... di ko alam kung ppayag ba ko... kahit sabi ko sa sarili ko na magandang plano nga yun... chka mejo nakakahiya din... kasi baka di nya magustuhan ung place... kaya lang mapilit talaga cya, at ndi rin ako makatanggi...<br /><br />walking distance lang ung kassel hanggang sa boarding house namin... kaya cympre naglakad lang kami, naguusap pa rin, ngkkwentuhan, at cympre di n mwawala ung usapan tungkol kay 'kahit ano!'... pagdating namin, naabutan namin c kuya luis lang... buti na lang! ako ung nag-introduce sa kanilang dalawa... tapos un nagsimula na rin silang magkwentuhan... kaya naastigan talaga ko kay joanne sa mga PR skills nya... dabest talaga... kakaiba... ndi matatawaran!!! :D ayun... hanggang sa dumating na rin c otep... pinagmamasdan ko lang ung dalawa kong ka-roommate habang nakikipagusap sila kay joanne... at natatawa ko sa mga facial expressions nila... at feeling ko gusto nila c joanne...:D at nasiyahan naman ako dun...<br /><br />mga 10: 30 nagyaya na c joanne umuwi... buti nman at nasiyahan cya sa mga bagong acquaintance na yun... nasiyahan ulit ako kasi bago kami maghiwalay nasabi pa niya na yayain ko daw siya pag magkakainuman kami... hehe! pero cympre...di ko cneryoso... kasi malamang joke lang nya yun... tipong PR tactics ba?!<br /><br />pag-balik ko... ibang kwento na naman yun... at bukas ko na lang itutuloy...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110952262168274576?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1108978314003791232005-02-21T16:12:00.000+08:002005-02-21T17:31:54.003+08:00im sick... huhu... may quiz p naman ako sa Proba... may ipapasa pa kong report... pano na yan? pano kaya ko kukuha ng special quiz... huhu... di ko na kaya... ikkwento ko sana ung paguusap namin ni abi last week... next time na lang! kc ndi na nagfufunction ung utak ko ng matino... i'ljust gona rest in my deathbed...<br /><br />i'm feeling shit!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110897831400379123?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1108623338777593722005-02-17T14:54:00.000+08:002005-02-17T15:01:04.006+08:00<img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v321/patrick49/davincicode.jpg"><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110862333877759372?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1107677397702550222005-02-15T10:36:00.000+08:002005-02-15T23:26:40.220+08:00frustrations are common customs<br />a naive disappointment for some<br />and may seem safe and a healthy notion<br />you might bang your head in a wall<br />or stab your self to death<br />as you see yourself small and frail<br />awfully defenseless and fragile<br />it'll make you recognize how far you are<br />from your trance<br />your pain and annoyance<br />it seem to occupy wherever you hide<br />and your first words started<br />as premature as your snooze<br />everything's jumbled you don't know<br />how to sort out your thoughts<br />disturbed, pictures lags your psyche<br />words in chaos<br />your tongue is loose<br />you're disappointed and weak and feeble<br />the dirt eats every inch of you<br />'til nothing's left from your flesh.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110767739770255022?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1108469434709109942005-02-09T20:04:00.000+08:002005-02-15T20:49:36.436+08:00ash wednesday. chinese new year din. may parang kakaiba sa gising ko ngayon na hindi ko ma-explain - something new and fresh. i felt peace and tranquility. all things was in harmony, lahat balanse. i felt the chi' in and out my system. it was a new day, a new life. the sun greeted me with a smile, and i felt every inch of its rays.<br /><br />himalang hindi ako na-late sa klase ko nung umaga... basta... walang hassle... except n lang dun sa score ko sa quiz ko sa signals compared dun sa score nung mga blockmates ko...(banas!) pero hindi na naging big deal sakin un... ayos lang... ala na kong magagawa... maaga ung uwian ko, dumaan muna ko sa OTI, andun ung mga ka-block ko... nagkayayaan magsimba sa may chapel, kaya lang ung isa sabi hapon na daw cya magsisimba, sa may uste daw... nagkaron ako ng idea... c geb agad ung naisip ko... tinext ko c denise, niyaya ko cya mag-simba sa ust, sa kasamaang palad wala na sila sa school... nasa sm daw... (mas astig!) nakaisip na naman ulit ako ng mas magandang idea... tinanong ko cya kung kasama nya c geb... oo daw, kaya nag-smile ung puso ko! nakipag-meet ako sa kanila... cympre excited ako... kaya lang bigla akong napa-isip... yun pala ung 1st time na magkikita kami ni denise... di naman kami mcyado close... di ko pa dala ung cd... di ko alam kung ano ung pwede naming pag-usapan... di naman namin pede pag-usapan c geb kc baka mabuking! hehe! di naman din kami ganon ka-close ni gebi... kaya lagot na... basta! di ko na alam... andyan na yan... di na pwdeng mag back-out... bahala na si batman?! eh di yun... napag-alaman kong manonood sila ng sine, pero wala kong balak sumama... eh di yun... nagkita-kita na kami... madami pala sila, c geb lang chka c denise ung girls, ung karamihan mga guys... ung isa dun sa mga guys eh ung dumidiskarte din ata kay geb? basta yun... mejo nakaka-OP... pero di ko hinayaan na ma-OP kahit naging mejo awkward na ung situation. naging ayos naman, saglit lang kami nagusapusap - mga 30 minutes hanggang sa ma-convince ko c geb na hihintayin ko siya matapos manood para sabay na lang kami umuwi. kailangan kong magpatay at mag-aksaya ng mahigit dalawang oras. ikot dito, ikot doon... hanggang sumakit ung katawan at paa ko sa kakalakad... ginutom din ako... nag-kape lang ako chka nag-donut... tapos Go ulit... hanggang sa dumating na yung time... bumalik ako dun sa place na pinag-meetingan namen... mejo kinabahan ako kase maraming tao na ang naglalabasan, "pano kung iniwan na nila ko?"... huhu... c denise ung tinetext ko, pero di cya nagrereply, mas lalo akong kinabahan... mga 10 minutes ang nagdaan nakita ko c geb... gumaan ung pakiramdam ko... natawa na lang ako bigla sa sarili ko... kunwari di ko cya nakikita... hinintay ko na makita niya ko... tapos yun, di naman cya nahirapan na makita ako... hehe... habang naglalakad papunta sa sakayan, may napansin ako sa kanya, nasa likod kasi nya ko, napapansin ko siyang lingon ng lingon sakin as if mawawala o maiiwan ako na parang bata, na parang CONCERNED ba?! hehe... assuming! tapos nun... maayos naman kaming dalawa na nakasakay ng bus... tahimik lang siya... ako nagtatanong, nagjojoke, nagkkwento, tumititig... buong biyahe ganun lang... tumatawa naman cya paminsan-minsan... at sobrang ok na makita ko ung ganon siya... basta masayang-masaya yun sa puso! ang stupid ko lang kasi kung kelan bababa na siya, dun ko pa lang sinabi na may sasabihin ako sa kanya na "alam mo na?"... pero di ko talaga nasabi... ang loser... pero masaya pa rin ako... may next time pa naman sigurado!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110846943470910994?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1107063715439526442005-01-30T13:29:00.000+08:002005-02-06T10:30:35.420+08:00you had me again <br />you crippled me once <br />so stupid, I let you do it again <br />so afraid to ask for the last dance <br />yet made me feel fine <br /> <br />what's in you? <br />what's in you that aggravates these lachrymal glands? <br />there's nothing I knew <br />what, or when, or how can do something as such <br /> <br />who can left me need you? <br />what can replace the fruit? <br />numb from head to feet <br />I'm screaming, my head's in bleed <br /> <br />instead of feeling bliss <br />I'm desperate and hopeless for your kiss <br />instead of flying free <br />all I do, is sob until deceased<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110706371543952644?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1106413370546363962005-01-23T01:54:00.000+08:002005-01-23T01:02:50.546+08:00<table width=400 align=center border=1 bordercolor=black cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2> <br /><tr><td bgcolor=#FF6699 align=center> <br /><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'> <br /><b>You Are From Saturn</b></font></td></tr> <br /><tr><td align=center bgcolor=#000000> <br /><img src="http://www.quizdiva.net/bt/saturn.jpg"><br /> <br /><font color="#FFCCCC">You're steady, organizes, and determined to achieve your dreams. <br />You tend to play it conservative, going by the rules (at least the practical ones). <br />You'll likely reach the top. And when you do, you'll be honorable and responsible. <br />Focus on happiness. Don't let your goals distract you from fun! <br />Don't be too set in your ways, and you'll be more of a success than you ever dreamed of.</font> <br /></td></tr></table> <br /><div align="center"> <br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/planetquiz.html">What Planet Are You From?</a> <br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110641337054636396?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1106412360310924682005-01-23T01:41:00.001+08:002005-01-23T00:46:59.700+08:00<table width=400 align=center border=1 bordercolor=black cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2> <br /><tr><td width=400 bgcolor=#FF6699 align=center> <br /> <br /><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'><b>Your EQ is</b></font></td></tr> <br /> <br /><tr><td align=center bgcolor=#000000> <br /> <br /><center><font color=#FF6699 size="+6">133</font></center> <br /> <br /><font color=#FFCCCC> <br />50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! <br /> <br />51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. <br /> <br />71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. <br /> <br />91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. <br /> <br />111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. <br /> <br />131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. <br /> <br />150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.</font></td></tr></table> <br /> <br /><div align="center"><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/eqquiz/index.php">What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?</a> <br /> <br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110641236031092468?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1106409487079341542005-01-22T23:54:00.000+08:002005-01-23T00:05:00.913+08:00<table width=400 align=center border=1 bordercolor=black cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2> <br /><tr><td bgcolor=#ff6699 align=center> <br /><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size:14pt;'> <br /><b>Your Element Is Air</b></font></td></tr> <br /><tr><td bgcolor=#000000> <br /><center><img src="http://www.quizdiva.net/bt/air.jpg"></center> <br /><font color=#ffcccc> <br />You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of <br /> <br />the world. <br />And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. <br /> <br />Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. <br />You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and <br /> <br />cheerful. <br /> <br />You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open <br /> <br />person. <br />With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that! <br /></font></td></tr></table> <br /> <br /><div align="center"> <br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/elementquiz.html">What's Your <br /> <br />Element?</a> <br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110640948707934154?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1106408441679505382005-01-22T23:38:00.000+08:002005-01-22T23:40:41.680+08:00<table width=400 align=center border=1 bordercolor=black cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2> <br /><tr><td bgcolor=#FF6699 align=center> <br /><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'> <br /><b>Your Dominant Intelligence is Intrapersonal Intelligence</b></font></td></tr> <br /><tr><td bgcolor=#000000> <br /><center><img src="http://www.quizdiva.net/bt/intrapersonal.jpg"></center> <br /><font color="#FFCCCC"> <br />Reflective and thoughtful, you enjoy spending time alone. <br />You are good at analyzing yourself - and knowing your true feelings. <br />Totally self aware, you are in tune with your dreams and desires. <br />A spiritual and philopsophical person, your inner calmness inspires and helps others. <br /> <br />You would make a great philosopher, researcher, or theorist. <br /></font></td></tr></table> <br /> <br /><div align="center"> <br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/intelligencequiz.html">What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?</a> <br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110640844167950538?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1106406994672585212005-01-22T23:15:00.000+08:002005-01-22T23:21:27.883+08:00<table width=400 align=center border=1 bordercolor=black cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2> <br /><tr><td bgcolor=#ff6699 align=center> <br /><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'> <br /><b>You Are 22 Years Old</b></font></td></tr> <br /><tr><td align=center bgcolor=#000000> <br /><center> <br /> <font color="#ff6699" size="+6"> <br /> 22 </font> <br /> <br /></center> <br /> <br /><font color="#ffcccc"> <br />Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. <br /> <br />13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. <br /> <br />20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. <br /> <br />30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! <br /> <br />40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. <br /></font></td></tr></table> <br /> <br /><div align="center"> <br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/">What Age Do You Act?</a> <br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110640699467258521?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1104761508673006822005-01-03T22:10:00.000+08:002005-01-03T22:26:23.796+08:00<table width=400 align=center border=1 bordercolor=black cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2> <br /><tr><td bgcolor=#ff6699 align=center> <br /><font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'> <br /><b>You Are a Visionary Soul</b></font></td></tr> <br /><tr><td bgcolor=#000000> <br /><center> <br /><img src="http://www.quizdiva.net/bt/visionary-soul.jpg"> <br /></center> <br /><font color="#ffcccc"> <br />You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. <br />Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul. <br />You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. <br />Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. <br /> <br />You have great vision and can be very insightful. <br />In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. <br />Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. <br />You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. <br /> <br />Souls you are most compatible with: <a href="http://www.blogthings.com/oldsoul.html">Old Soul</a> and <a href="http://www.blogthings.com/peacemakersoul.html">Peacemaker Soul</a> <br /></font></td></tr></table> <br /> <br /><div align="center"> <br /><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/kindsoulquiz.html">What Kind of Soul Are You?</a> <br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110476150867300682?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1104496069540506742004-12-31T20:18:00.000+08:002004-12-31T20:27:49.540+08:00<!-- start puzzle HTML --> <br /> <br /><OBJECT classid="clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000" codebase="http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/swflash.cab#version=6,0,0,0" WIDTH="750" HEIGHT="570" id="puz393945" ALIGN=""> <PARAM NAME=movie VALUE="http://www.flash-gear.com/npuz/puz.php?c=f&o=1&id=89670&k=8434208&s=60&w=600&h=420"> <PARAM NAME=quality VALUE=high> <PARAM NAME=wmode VALUE=transparent> <PARAM NAME=scale VALUE=noscale> <PARAM NAME=salign VALUE=LT> <PARAM NAME=bgcolor VALUE=#FFFFFF> <EMBED src="http://www.flash-gear.com/npuz/puz.php?c=f&o=1&id=89670&k=8434208&s=60&w=600&h=420" quality=high wmode=transparent scale=noscale salign=LT 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kahit 'round 12.30 na ng madaling araw nun... at sumama naman sila... halos buong time na magkksama na kami, tahimik lang ako... food trip lang kami, tpos lakad kahit saan... tpos biglang nagkayayaang maginternet sa bahay namen... eh di ayun... naglakad kame papunta samen, mejo malayo tapos nakakatamad chka nakakaantok... kung wala lang cya dun na ichura pa lang pampagising na, matutulog na talaga ko sa kalsada...hehe.. wala na c doi... kami-kami na lang nila danica, abi at c bibis... dumating kami samin ng sobrang gulo ng bahay... 1 am na nun pero gcng pa rin ung mom ko... mejo ndi pa pala tapos ung inaayos namin earlier that day... eh di ayun... i feel kinda awkward for that situation... i expected kc na tulog na lahat sa bahay... nonetheless, i did handle the situation right... mejo sleepy na ko habang binabantayan ko sila mag-net, at swerte ko pa kasi nakuha ko ung password ni gebi dahil dun sa key logger ko... hahah... kaya lang eventually nakahalata din cya na may ibang may alam ng password nya kaya nag-change cya.. :( pero ok lang... ala naman din akong nakitang mga DARK secrets dun sa mga emails nya at friendster account nya.... hehe... ayun... pagkatapos ng kainan, sayahan, at internetan... inantok din kami lahat... 4:00 am na kami natapos, hinatid ko lang sila hanggang sa safe na silang lumakad na mag-isa, kc antok na talaga ko... tapos ayun...pag-tapos ng bye's, umuwi na ko... pag-dating ko sa bahay... marami palang kalat... sabi ko "bukas ko na lang lilinisin yan.." at masaya akong natulog sa malambot kong higaan, kasama ang malalambot ko ring unan... mga ilang minuto ang nagdaan... napansin ko n lang na nag-karon ng buhay ung isa kong unan..at naging c geb... (nananaginip na pala ko...) :D<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110578345482071985?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1104770311966604272004-12-23T22:41:00.000+08:002005-02-15T21:17:25.240+08:00next naman ung concert sa church nila danica, december 23 yon... danica, geb & bibis (the star of the show!) will be performing on stage.. way cool! haha!:D actually, i was invited a week after the said date. i was offered a hundred bucks ticket by danics, i said: "what? 100? itutulog ko na lang... tataba pa ko! "... i'm stunned at first kc masyadong expensive nman un... kasi 3 hrs lang ata yung concert na yon... pero pagkatapos ng madugong pilitan, napa-agree pa ren ako... basta... mejo naguguluhan nga ako eh, kc, araw-araw den bumababa ung price nung ticket... una nga 100, tapos naging 50, tapos sa hule naging 20 na lang!!! (whaT?!) ... teka, ngayon ko lang narealize yon ah... niloloko nya ko!!!hmm? hehe...:D sinama ko c may, sabi nya ok lang daw, eh di ayun... pero the last minute, wag na lang daw... badtrip... pero ayos lang... c jeli n lang yung kasama ko, tpos ung iba nyang mga friends... eh di ayun... nag-meet kami ni jeliza... mejo late na kame, kase 8 pm supposed 2 be un mgsstart... pero ayos lang... mejo nalate din ngstart un... eh di ayun... onti lang ung tao, karamihan eh mga familiar faces... ayos... masaya... nakita ko kaagad c geb, c bibis den nakita ko, kaya lang di pa ko sure nung una kasi, nakacostume cya... hehe... pero cya nga un... c danica cympre andun den! ang astig nga eh... drummer c danix; c geb, choir; c kuya luis, cya ung sa ohp; tpos c bibis, dancer...hehe! nakakatawa... di ko akalaen...wahaha!!! :D ayos naman ung palabas... though konti lang ung tao, mageenjoy ka cgurado! lalo na pag nakita mo c bibis!!! haha!!!:D kaya lang meron lang talaga kong di gustong feeling pag nagpupunta ko sa church nila... ndi maganda ung ganung feeling... parang gusto mo na lang na biglang mawala, kaya cguro madalas umiiwas sa mga ganung pangyayari, ndi cya big deal na kailangan layuan, kailangan lang talaga na malaman mo ung mga dapat mong gawin sa mga ganung sitwasyon, ang ginawa ko na lang nag-smile na lang ako magdamag, kase hindi ko talaga alam kung pano ba i-deal ung mga ganung bagay... kaya un... ayos pa rin naman eh... its a matter of waiting and basta... so un nga ung nangyari after nung concert... pagkatapos nun, sabay-sabay na kami umuwi nila geb, danica, bibis, at nung iba pang ka-church mate nila... dumirecho kami ni danica kila doi... la lang... tapos niyaya namin cya na pumunta kila geb... ung next nito ay sa 4th day of christmas na...=D<br /><br />musical dicovery: the prize fighter inferno (side project of coheed and cambria)<br />espresso shots: 4<br />mood: motivated! :D<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110477031196660427?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1104504244808229782004-12-20T20:30:00.000+08:002005-02-15T21:20:05.520+08:00waaaHH!!! di ko kaya talaga pagsunud-sunurin... basta isusulat ko lang ung naalala ko... eto yun:<br /><br />DAY 2<br /><br />basta ung naaalala ko na sunod na lakad ko nitong xmas break eh nung xmas party nung CAT sa immac... nung isang gabi lang ako nasabihan... at hindi ko kinonfirm kung pupunta ba ko o hinde... kase... long stroy... basta ibang storya na yan... eh di ayun... gabe na nun, mga 9:00, pumunta ako kila ime para sunduin cya, habang papunta sa kanila may mga nakasalubong akong mga studyante sa may annex bldg. at nagkaron ako ng hint na dun ung place nung party... pag dating ko kila ime, ndi pa cya ready pagdating ko sa kanila. Naghintay ako saglit, tapos umalis na rin kame kaagad... walking distance lang ung place mula kila ime, mga less than a minute lang na lakad... half-way pa lang kame, naririnig na namen ung sounds mula dun sa place, tapos nakikita namen ung mga labas-pasok na mga tao...pag dateng namen don, sinalubong kame ng isang manong guard... nagtanong c ime dun sa kakilala namen na si mang bayani kung anjan na ba ung mga kakilala namen... oo daw... at un pinapasok na kame... ndi ko iniixpect na ganon karame ung tao... nagulat na lang ako... na may tumatakbo na papunta saken, girl cya na mas macho pa saken... inabot ng 3 seconds pa bago marehistro ung mukha at pangalan nya sa utak ko... at naalala kong c espi pala yon...at bigla akong hinila papunta dun sa marameng tao... nahihiya ako kase ung ibang tao don hindi ko kakilala at hanggang sa mga oras na yon, hindi ko pa nakikita ung mga kakilala namen ni ime... pag tingin ko kay ime..pati rin pala cya hinihila ng isang chubby na babae... naka-glasses cya... pero cute... c shewe yun, napagtanto ko... ayun... inisa-isa ko ng tingin ung mga taong nandon... at yon... isa-isa silang nagsulputan sa paningin ko... c doi nakita ko, c oca, c apol, c bucks, c cado, c jech, c don, c kai... at ung iba pa na ndi ko na maalala... wala kang ibang maiisep na gawin don kase... mga bata pa ung mga andun... baka pag gumawa kame ng kalokohan don eh maculture shock ung mga un... pero cympre... kasama na sa instinct ko at hobbies ko ang mag chic hunting... eh mejo pabor din saken at dun sa mga babaero kong mga katropa ung pwesto at pagkakaayos ng mga upuan... (ung group ng mga alumni ah nakaharap dun sa mga group ng mga hayskul na pinapagitnaan nung dance floor)... (iffast-forward ko na ha)... that night was a perfect time to know more people.. sweet songs ung usual themes doon... yep.. mejo parang prom! yucky pero ayos lang... hehe! tapos un...ffw ulit... c kathleen ung pinakahuli kong nakasayaw... at cya rin ung pinaka-cute.. hehe... i was able to get her number... and until now, we stil talk... i call her often lalo na pag hindi busy...ayun... mejo mataas ang esteem ko paglabas ko dun sa place na yun... tapos i felt close pa dun sa sis ni jech... hehe... she treated me as kuya also... kaya nakakatuwa...hehe... after nung xmas party na yun... gumawa naman kame nila ime ng sariling party... naginom kame sa bahay nila!!! kame-kame nila doi, jech, ime, at ako... natatawa ko sa mga pinagsasabe nila... c jech eh nag-reminisce about dun sa namatay niyang tatay... tapos si ime... nagchismis na naman as usual... c doi naman...expected ko ng tahimek lang yun... kase saken lang un madaldal eh.... pag may ibang tao, hindi yon macyado nagsasalita... kaya ayon.... basta... masaya ko nung araw na yon... nung araw na yon ko narealize na may pasko pala... na magpapasko pala... na magugustuhan ko pala ang pasko ngayon... na pwde pala maging masaya ang isang malungkuting bata, na hindi nawawalan ng problema na tulad ko... wahahaha!!!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110450424480822978?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1104259297385173772004-12-15T02:40:00.000+08:002005-02-15T21:54:55.533+08:00xmas break ng inuman, kasiyahan, at cympre puyatan!!! mejo ndi ko n alam ung pgkkasunod-sunod ng mga pangyayari nitong xmas break... pero ito ung:<br /><br />DAY 1<br /><br />ung first kong gimik this break eh yung right after dapat nung removal exams ko sa logic circuits... na-miss ko yun kc pucha, na-late ako ng sobra, 3:00 pm ako nagising nung day na yun... 12:00 pm kami pinapag-report sa prof namen... nung nagising ako, kinontact ko kaagad ung classmate ko... sabi nya, wala pa daw ung prof namen... mejo tamad na tamad na ko nun, di ko na alam kung pupunta pa ba ko o hindi na... sabe nung classmate ko 6:30 pm daw mgsstart ung exams... tinry ko humabol, pero 5:00 na ko naka-alis ng bahay... at sa sobrang traffic sa SLEX pati sa buendia, na pina-ikot-ikot pa nung bus driver ung minamaneho nya... ayun, 7:30 pm na nasa buendia pa rin ako... di na ko aabot kaya bumaba na lang ako ng magallanes... kala ko ok na... eh ang hirap den pala sumakay dun... isang oras pa bago ko nakasakay... eh di ayun... dumirecho na ko sa bahay nila mark mendo... eh iniwan na pala nila ko... *naiinis na ko...* pero ndi pa rin ako sumusuko... umuwi ako agad para matawagan sila mark at itanong kung asan na sila... ayun... ang nakausap ko c mond... nasa paseo de sta. rosa na pala sila nung mga time na yun, mejo nanghinayang ako... pero nagulat ako nung sinabi nila na babalikan na lang nila ko... so ayun, nag-meet kami... habang naghihintay, nakasalubong ko c Apple, hindi ko un iniexpect... we exchanged hi's and hello's at niyaya ko na cya na sumama sa gimik namin nila mark... despite sa strict nyang bf at strict nyang schedule, pumayag cya na sumama... eh di ayun... sa padis alabang kmi nagpunta... that night was quite a blast! i danced even if i don't know how to... i met lots of bitches... doing me dirty dances and stuffs... basta ang kapal muks ko nung mga time na yun... ngaun ko lang ata nagawa yun... hehe!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110425929738517377?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1102448413741679722004-12-08T02:51:00.000+08:002004-12-08T03:40:13.743+08:00nung nov 3, friday, na-disappoint na naman ako dun sa plan namin ni james na pupunta kami ng providence tower... mejo maulap pa nung umaga, kktapos lang kasi nung bagyo... kala ko pa naman hanggang hapon ganun ung weather... w/c turned out not to be... kaya mejo nakakatamad ng umalis ng bahay... eh mejo nakakabitin rin ung plano naming un kaya naisipan kong yayain na lang sila mond na lumabas... treat ko sabi ko.. eh yun payag naman sila... stroll-stroll lang muna kami kung saan-saan, hanap ng matinong bar... eh mejo konti rin ung tao sa iba... bali sa macahora lang meron kahit papano na kapiranngot na mga tao... saya naman... dami rin napagkkwentuhan... we even met some chic there, her name was Rue Somethin, i forgot... must've been the alcohol... pero ung highlight talaga nung gabing yun eh nung may dumating bigla na mejo familiar-looking face... i really didn't expect her there... nung una, i still have doubts kung cya nga un... i even asked a waitress to ask for that girl's name... i'm pretty sure na cya nga yun... parang gusto ko lang makasiguro... tpos nung pag-balik nung waitress... un nga! sabi ko na nga ba, cya yun! c chi'may yun! dapat last round na namin nila mond at mark yung natitira sa table namin kaya lang bigla namang dumating yun... napilitan pa tuloy akong i-treat nga sila... para kahit papano masabayan namin sila...kya lang hinde... mejo naging uneasy na ko... kinakabahan na ko, i've been so anxious and nervous, that i'd have to pee on my pants (not to be taken literally..hehe...) i didn't know what to do, i wanted to talk to her, kaya lang may kasama siyang guy, or gay? or whatever...but i'm sure they're on a date... nanghihinayang talaga ko... putik... i'm much better than that guy... that guy seem to know nothing... he's jst the gay guy, who talks a lot... but seem to attract the attention of girls... maybe because of the pheromones produced between his upper lip and nostrils... i really don't know what to do... then suddenly... i felt a whapppak! thank's for the alcohol... i now get it... i must really talk with her... without thinking...without caring for whatever she will say and think... i approached her... i ask her if we cud talk... and it seem that she really doesn't know me... and said a bunch of craps until she believed that she's the one who made me stupid... for about a month ago... she seem not intrested... i didn't care... i just wanted to talk... i just wanted to spend my stay there w/ her...even for just a few hours or minutes... without that gay guy... then the conversation was terminated by her uttering "i have a date, can't u see... next time na lang..." good! it did really terrified me... i immediately returned to our table to ask my company to leave that place at once...without them asking for any reason...right there and then we left... <br /> <br />* oh, and btw, that was our first real meet... we haven't really had the chance to date or see each other or whatever b4... <br /> <br />the following day, mom, i and sis went to the dentist, magpapabunot ata ko, i'm xpecting that that operation, wud be as pain as hell, pero ndi naman ata?kala ko pa naman masakit talaga magpa-bunot ng ngipin... ndi naman pala! mejo napapapikit lang ako nung iniinjectionan na yung bagang ko...mga 3 to 4 times yun... pero ndi ko na talaga naramdaman ung pagbunot...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110244841374167972?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1101720633631642632004-11-29T17:29:00.000+08:002004-12-08T04:03:15.526+08:00<div align="center"><!--57.89 50.98 60 51.22--> <table style="color: black; background: #eeeeee" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td> <div align="center"> <table style="color: black; background: #dddddd" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td> <div align="center"> Withdrawn (I) 57.89% Outgoing (E) 42.11%<br> Imaginative (N) 50.98% Realistic (S) 49.02%<br> Intellectual (T) 60% Emotional (F) 40%<br> Improvised (P) 51.22% Organized (J) 48.78%<br> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <table style="color: black; background: #eeeeee" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0"> <tr> <td> <div align="center"> Your type is: <b><font size="+3">INTP</font></b><br> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <table style="color: black; background: #dddddd" border="0" cellpadding="4" cellspacing="0" width="100%"> <tr> <td width="280quot;> <div align="left"> You are an Architect, possible professions include - strategic planning, writer, staff development, lawyer, architect, software designer, financial analyst, college professor, photographer, logician, artist, systems analyst, neurologist, physicist, psychologist, research/development specialist, computer programmer, data base manager, chemist, biologist, investigator. </div> </td> </tr> </table> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <a href="http://similarminds.com/career.html">Take This Test</a><br><font size="1"><a href="http://similarminds.com">similarminds.com</a></font></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110172063363164263?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1101719649076137512004-11-29T17:08:00.000+08:002005-02-17T16:08:56.180+08:00<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/N/nekokittychi/1075172561_SnowSprite.jpg" border="0" alt="Snow Sprite"><br>Unique, mystical, insightful and beautiful<br />You are a Snow sprite. Mysterious, and alluring you<br>naturally attract people to you, your like a<br>people magnet even though you most often wish<br>to be alone. Your love for cold climates and<br>snow has given you an insight into the beauty<br>few see. While most see bland white you see a<br>forest or blanket of sparkling white beauty. To<br>you life is something precious and you intend<br>to figure out its mysteries. You are very<br>mature and don't waste your intelligence on<br>childish games or people not worth your time<br>which can make you seem arrogant at times but<br>you are really just intent on saving your time<br>for better things. Your soul is very beautiful<br>if not a little shut up, you keep your emotions<br>hidden from everyone and therefore they don't<br>know what your capable of. You are a living<br>fantasy.<br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/nekokittychi/quizzes/.%3A%3A%3DWhat%20type%20of%20mythical%20Sprite%20are%20you%3F%3D%3A%3A.%20-With%20Anime%20Pictures%20and%20detailed%20answers-/"> <font size="-1">what mythical spirit are you?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110171964907613751?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1101716211757112232004-11-29T16:06:00.000+08:002004-12-08T04:22:01.343+08:00<div align="center"> <table style="color: black; background: #eeeeee"border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="2"> <tr> <td bgcolor="#eeeeee"> <div align="center"> Personality Disorder Test Results <table style="color: black; background: #dddddd"border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="4" bgcolor="#dddddd"> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder_info.html#paranoid">Paranoid</a></td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">74%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder_info.html#schizoid">Schizoid</a></td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">86%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder_info.html#schizotypal">Schizotypal</a></td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">78%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder_info.html#antisocial">Antisocial</a></td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">58%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder_info.html#borderline">Borderline</a></td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">82%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder_info.html#histrionic">Histrionic</a></td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">82%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder_info.html#narcissistic">Narcissistic</a></td> <td width="50">||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">42%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder_info.html#avoidant">Avoidant</a></td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">58%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder_info.html#dependent">Dependent</a></td> <td width="50">||||||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">74%</td> </tr> <tr> <td><a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder_info.html#obsessive-compulsive"> Obsessive-Compulsive</a></td> <td width="50"> ||||||||||||||</td> <td width="30">58%</td> </tr> </table> </div> </td> </tr> </table> <a href="http://similarminds.com/personality_disorder.html"> take this test!</a><br><font size="1"><a href="http://similarminds.com">by similarminds.com</a></font> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110171621175711223?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1101715472075582332004-11-29T15:54:00.000+08:002004-12-08T04:25:48.240+08:00<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/T/tweak23/1059729692_casablanca.jpg" border="0" alt="casablanca"><br>"You must remember this, a kiss is still a<br>kiss". Your romance is Casablanca. A<br>classic story of love in trying times, chock<br>full of both cynicism and hope. You obviously<br>believe in true love, but you're also<br>constantly aware of practicality and societal<br>expectations. That's not always fun, but at<br>least it's realistic. Try not to let the Nazis<br>get you down too much. <br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/tweak23/quizzes/What%20Romance%20Movie%20Best%20Represents%20Your%20Love%20Life%3F/"> <font size="-1">what movie represents your love life?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110171547207558233?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1101714525713156812004-11-29T15:44:00.000+08:002004-11-29T15:51:59.326+08:00<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/P/prodigyofpenguin/1100365474_ermillion2.jpg" border="0" alt="HASH(0x888d354)"><br> Vermilion--- Slipknot <br />she seems caress in all the rings of past<br>fraternaties so fragile yet so devious, she<br>continues to see climatic hands depress her<br>temples and my chest enter the night she came<br>home 4ever she's the only one that makes me sad<br>she is everything and more the solemn hypnotic<br>my dahlia bathed in possession she's so into me<br>I get nervous perverse when I see her it's<br>worse, the stress is astounding it's now or<br>never she's coming home forever. She's the only<br>one that makes me sad. Hard to say what caught<br>my attention fixed and crazy aphid attarcion<br>carve my name in my face to recognize such a<br>pheromone cult to terrorize I won't let this<br>build up inside of me. I'm a slave and I am a<br>master, no restraints and unchecked collectors<br>I exist through my need to self- oblige she is<br>soemthing in me that I despise I won't let this<br>build up inside of me........ she isn't real I<br>can't make her real. <br /><br><br><a href="http://quizilla.com/users/prodigyofpenguin/quizzes/What%20song%20describes%20your%20opinion%20in%20love%3F/"> <font size="-1">What song describes your opinion in love?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a href="http://quizilla.com">Quizilla</a></font><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110171452571315681?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1101543146256985072004-11-27T16:07:00.000+08:002004-11-27T16:53:53.586+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">TO: everyone who can read this... <br /> <br />I just found this pretty neat site that is giving away free stuff, such as the new iPod, a miniDV camcorder, a home theater system, a Canon digital camera, or CASH. <br /> <br />It is completely legitimate, and thousands of people have received their products from the free sites so far. <br /> <br />All you need to do is copy the following link into your browser, and follow the simple instructions as you go! <br /> <br />Here is my link: <br /></span><a href="http://www.tech4free.com/default.aspx?ref=34094"><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">http://www.tech4free.com/default.aspx?ref=34094</span></a><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"> <br /> <br />ps. there's no harm in trying? </span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110154314625698507?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1101392476908894262004-11-25T22:17:00.000+08:002004-11-27T16:32:21.686+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOURE DEPRESSED? <br />~> sleep..like i've never slept b4.. <br /> <br />WHAT DO YOU WANT TO NAME YOUR FUTURE CHILD? <br />~> ? <br /> <br />WHAT MAKES U CRY? <br />~> memories.. <br /> <br />WHAT'S YOUR MIDNIGHT SNACK? <br />~> cookies and coffee <br /> <br />WHAT DO YOU THINK OF HOMOSEXUAL MARRIAGES? <br />~> don't care... <br /> <br />WHAT DO YOU THINK OF ABORTION? <br />~> i'm not into it... the f*ck i care? <br /> <br />WHAT'S ONE THING YOU LOVE ABOUT YOUR COUNTRY? <br />~> beaches and bitches... <br /> <br />DESCRIBE YOUR MOM... <br />~> hmmm? i haven't thought of that since birth? <br /> <br />NUMBER OF OVERNIGHTS YOU'VE GONE TO? <br />~> whenever i want to.. <br /> <br />BIBLE QUOTE YOU'LL NEVER FORGET? <br />~> john 3:16 "..for god so loved the world, he gave his only son, jesus christ.." <br /> <br />BEST GIFT YOU HAVE EVER RECEIVED? <br />~> none so far.... <br /> <br />SHOW THAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? <br />~> will &amp; grace... 2 and a half men... that seventy's...and stuffs like that..usually american sitcom's... <br /> <br />LOOK AROUND. WHAT CAUGHT YOUR EYE? <br />~> coffee cup <br /> <br />YOUR WISH WHEN YOU LAST BLEW A BIRTHDAY CANDLE? <br />~> i wish i had a birthday cake to blow a birthday candle.. <br /> <br />CLOSE YOUR EYES FOR A FEW SECONDS. WHAT DID YOU SEE? <br />~> i see a kaleidoscope... <br /> <br />DO YOU LIKE BUYING BRANDED CLOTHES? <br />~> depends.. <br /> <br />DO YOU KNOW YOUR BESTFRIEND'S FRIENDSTER PASSWORD? <br />~> nope.. <br /> <br />DO YOU FOLLOW FASHION TRENDS? <br />~> no.. fashion trends follow me... <br /> <br />HAVE YOU EVER RAN AWAY? <br />~> just thought of it... <br /> <br />HAVE YOU EVER LITERALLY BEEN A SHOULDER TO CRY ON? <br />~> yep.. then next is sex... <br /> <br />HAVE YOU EVER INTENTIONALLY IGNORED SOMEONE? FOR HOW LONG? <br />~> im not a whore... <br /> <br />HAVE YOU EVER WENT ON A ROMANTIC DATE? <br />~> hmm... yeah? <br /> <br />HAVE YOU EVER RECEIVED A LOVE LETTER? <br />~> yep.. <br /> <br />WHEN WAS THE FIRST TIME? <br />~> im dont feel like talking about it right now... <br /> <br />HAVE YOU EVER WRITTEN A LOVE LETTER? WHEN WAS THE FIRST TIME? <br />~> grade 5? <br /> <br />DO YOU THINK YOU'LL EVER GET CANCER? <br />~> no.. never thought of that... <br /> <br />IF YOU DO GET CANCER AND HAVE ABOUT A MONTH TO LIVE, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? <br />~> i first wana b with all my friends doing things i've nver done b4...bungee jumping, skydiving, downhill mountainbiking, do professional bmx stunts, be in a cruise bound to north pole, be in a peak of a high mountain, punta ng phuket, ibiza, paris, hawaii, carribean, bahamas, norway, tokyo, kyoto, africa, st. petersburgh, area 51, moscow, long beach cali.. and all the famous beaches around the world..ung pinakahuli sa palawan or bora... and there i'l die... <br /> <br />IF YOU COULD SPEND A WEEK ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO? <br />~> phuket, paris, long beach, ibiza, bora... hehe... kahit saan! <br /> <br />IF YOU WROTE A BOOK, WHAT WOULD IT BE ABOUT? <br />~> about myself... <br /> <br />WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PAST? <br />~> distant or not so distant past? <br /> <br />WHERE DO YOU USUALLY GO SHOPPING? <br />~> uk! <br /> <br />HOW MUCH DID YOU SPEND YESTERDAY? <br />~> who r u to know? <br /> <br />HOW MANY OF YOUR CLOSE RELATIVES ARE LIVING ABROAD? WHERE? <br />~> ndi ko alam eh? 2 lang kilala ko.. s japan chka sa stets... <br /> <br />MOTTO/S IN LIFE? <br />~> i'm my own motto... </span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110139247690889426?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1101231829988879032004-11-24T01:04:00.000+08:002004-11-24T01:52:43.096+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="font-size:85%;">kainis...eto na naman po tayo... hindi ko na naman na-uupadate tong' inayupak na toh... pero la lang... i'l still try... ayun! bale, mejo, parang may bumabalik na naman akong kaadikan... ang cheap, kasi addict na naman ako sa chat... ung as in ung sa mIRC... una 'kong naadik d2 mga 3rd-4th yr high school, about 3-4 years ago... buti na lang at na-rehab ako dati... hehe...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">nga pala... nung saturday (Nov 20)... nagyaya si ime, birthday daw nung naka-chat nya dati na c steph... nagulat ako kasi nandun sa party ung mga lower batch ng immac, c roslin, c mendoza, chka c labitan na school mate ko sa mapua andun din! nakakatawa kasi, lagi ko 'tong nakakasabay sa fx pero ndi kami nagpapansinan, although familiar face nga cya nung HS... bali ayun bonding tuloy kami... after pa nung party, tumuloy kami ni ime sa seawind, kasama c labitan... nadagdagan na naman tayo ng mga kakilala... hehe! nga pala... mukhang ok din ung may birthday for a one night stand... gamitin daw namin ung 20% discount card nya sa Sogo... ittxt ko yun minsan... hehe!</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">current song: brand new - the quiet things no one ever knows</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">mood: exhausted...</span> </span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110123182998887903?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1100934050089349612004-11-20T14:58:00.000+08:002004-11-20T15:10:08.356+08:00<div align="left"><span style="font-family:verdana;">i did this w/ a logitech QuickCam Express... its really impossible to do good shots in a webcam...but i did! harhar! it's rili somethin i jst tripped about last year, i guess?:D</div><p align="center"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v321/patrick49/PHONE.jpg" /></p></span><div align="center"><span style="font-family:verdana;">"making contact" <br /> <br /></div><p align="center"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v321/patrick49/CPU.jpg" /></p><p align="center">"good ol' one"</p><div align="left"></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110093405008934961?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1100933115409246622004-11-20T14:43:00.000+08:002004-11-20T14:54:14.590+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;">Today was really the same thing as what had happened in my every existing day in my life! </span><span style="font-family:verdana;">I got out of bed as usual stuff when ur sick of insomnia! </span><span style="font-family:verdana;">I feel unusual because my antidepressants are making me hairy.</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"> <br />I'm so hardcore. Me and Buzz went to the mall today, and we stole a whole heap of stuff. I got a Tool CD, a couple of DVDs and some new sneakers. Buzz got caught, but he fought his way out, and then we stole some lady's car and smashed it into a phone booth. <br /> <br />Last night I had to masturbate twenty times. I'm so horny. Click <a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/">here</a> to see my website. <br /> <br />I want to tell the world that my girlfriend Amy is the bomb! She made pizza last night, and even though I burnt my lips on the cheese, it was awesome!!! <br /> <br />I am really annoyed with those assholes at _are_you_hotter_than_us_?, because I am so much cuter than them, and those photos don't do me justice. They can't reject me, so I'm starting my own rating community. Click <a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/">here</a> to join (the first five applicants are automatically accepted). <br /> <br />Last night, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's some photos of my girlfriend in the nude (but don't tell her that I've posted them <a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/">here</a> - she'll kill me! Har har.) <br /> <br />I want to say thanks to simon and Abbey and Dave and the other Simon for helping me on Saturday. You guys are the best. By the way, if you happen to find my wallet, keys or underwear, could you SMS me? Adrian has my number. <br /> <br />I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have a terrible skin disease which prevents me from coming into contact with other human beings. And bipolar disorder. <br /> <br />You should all do <a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/">this quiz</a>! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you who you're sexually compatible with. <br /> <br />*You're a BIG time moron, if u bliv one of these are true! haha! <br /> <br />That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm cute! <br /> <br /><small>Created with the <a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/widgets/toys/livejournal/">Gregor's" Semi-Automatic LiveJournal Updater™</a>. Update your journal today! <br />Powered by <a href="http://rumandmonkey.com/"><span style="font-family:verdana;">http://rumandmonkey.com/</span></a><span style="font-family:verdana;"> and Monkey</span></small> <br /><small><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span></small> <br /><small><span style="font-family:verdana;">Current Music: Open Hand - Thought Process</span></small> <br /><small><span style="font-family:verdana;">Shots of Espresso: 2?</span></small> <br /><small><span style="font-family:verdana;">Mood: insane...</small></span> <br /></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110093311540924662?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1100932972340583742004-11-20T14:38:00.000+08:002004-11-20T14:42:52.340+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;">* i'm busy...</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110093297234058374?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1100193704491564632004-11-10T01:42:00.000+08:002004-11-12T01:31:52.960+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;">ok?! yes! i've been too emotional these past few days, you can't blame me... no one can blame me... i see myself now on a peaceful state... i've been too cursing, been mad on this world... and it's not right anymore... there's still something to do, she's not my world, she doesn't control everything about me... thank God i'm still sane despite the insane THING that just happened. i'm still on a shock, still on an inbalanced state... still figurin' out where should i start and stand again... everything around me is still normal. still the society which everyone know, is still as it is... normal things still come, i guess it's how i accept that is not. i still want to be alone, or at least be with my closest friends... i resist anyone, anything... i seldom talk, i always stare into this everlasting gaze. i just hate myself now... what bothers me is why the same thing had happened again, didn't i learn? am i so stupid that i let the same thing happen again? is this my fate? to fail? to lose? to learn nothing? will this be the last? God guide me, please?! i beg You...</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-110019370449156463?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1099512497327854692004-11-04T03:56:00.000+08:002004-11-04T04:08:17.326+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">totoong journal na ung pinagkakaabalahan ko ngayon, kaya you might find that i'll be posting here once in a while na lang...</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">un nga! last night ulit! i called her na naman... not realizing again the consequences, the phone bills that might reach a couple of K's, dang! nakaka-addict naman kasi siya eh! t*ngna! mahal ko na ata siya?! tapos sabi pa ata nya na napapatawa ko na siya (w/c is quite obvious during our conversations) yan tuloy naging cripple na naman ako... disabling myself to think and do straight thinking... ang malupit pa nun eh... never mind na lang... (dun ko n lang isusulat sa journal)... ako naman si tanga, expecting na she'll text me, ayun! naghintay sa wala! i later realize that she can really be accessible pag kausap mo, pero when we're not, as if she has her own world, a world w'c i really don't exist... ahhh! Love! you had me again! cupid's bow had me struck BIG time!!! my sense of practicallity has now been starting to self-destruct... dang! i hate my self for this, but i equally like her... dang! which is which? what is what? Ahhh! Love!~</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109951249732785469?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1099300962233780862004-11-01T17:19:00.000+08:002004-11-01T17:26:53.646+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;">who's fault is it? is it mine or is it yours? i've been innocently frail and fragile, you broke my defenses, totally naked, completely bare without any form of security and protection. you demolished my already splintered walls and feeble pillars, which I built for me to protect myself from my shortcomings, for me to defend these weaknesses and diseases you carry along with you. you took advantage of the frailness and fissures of these walls, and suddenly get through these barricades without me noticing. you wear a mask of deceit and deceptions, you who made me feel something different, you who almost knew where my weak spots are… as if you were someone who knew me, as if you were someone who were made to annihilate me. you did caught me, you've been always the bait who's waiting to trap and jam all my possessions up – including my self-esteem and compassion. You took advantage of my state of frailty and vulnerability, you've been simple and uncomplicated, you've been what I don't expect, you've been a repeated history, you've been someone I'm still trying to put out of my mind. now I'm confused, it's just that I didn't do something to prevent these deep infiltrations. I let you destroy my defenses, I let you caught me, I let you made me numb and do nothing… now what? what am I going to do? things are now starting to be complicated, the emotions continue to infest my inner ego. now I'm all numb, all yours, surrendering, letting you in control…</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">what i'm feeling: weak...</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">current song: learning to breath (switchfoot)</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109930096223378086?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1098920299932878632004-10-28T06:58:00.000+08:002004-11-04T03:55:38.303+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;">hahahaha! buti na lang! may re-test kami sa logic! pano naman kasi, eh diba nga sequential ung test na yun? unang tanong pa lang, invalid na... walang sagot! hahaha! kaya ibig sabihin, di mo rin masasagutan ung mga proceeding questions! wahahah! t*ngna, wag lang sana ganon kahirap ulit ung lumabas... sa wednesday ung re-test namin... mahaba-habang aralan toh! at buti na lang hindi na counted ung quiz na nauna... hahahaha! ako ang batas!!!</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">nag-usap pala kmi kgabi... i feel like we're close again</span><span style="font-family:verdana;">... and she said something that really pleased my ear... she said something like "trick, ang tiyaga mo!" - means that she still appreciates what i'm doin, or what i still feel for her... hahahaha! chka eto pa... hindi na rin ako nhihiya na mag-sabi s kanya na i like someone other than her... that i'm trying to pursue that OTHER... at ang malupit pa dun eh humihingi ako ng diskarte... sabi p nya sakin na ang hina ko daw, eh bat daw nung siya ung nililigawan ko, ang lakas ng dating... hehe! (kapal!) *wushuuu... gusto mo lang na ikaw ung ligawan ko eh! hehe! joke...*</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">mood: high!</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">currently playing: saosin - mookies last christmas</span> <br />coffee shots: 2...aga pa! <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109892029993287863?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1098728063578592782004-10-26T01:02:00.001+08:002004-10-28T07:23:52.716+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;">kainis! wala kong nasagutan sa logic... leche naman kasi...sequential ung mga tanong, kapag di mo nasagutan ung first question, hindi mo na masasagutan lahat... bwisit na Damian yan... pasira ng linggo... first time ko toh sa buong buhay ko na mag-pass ng papel na walang laman na kahit ano... bwisit tlga! pucha, grabe...1st exam pa lang, ganyan na kahirap? what more kung nasa mapping na kami? o kaya sa registers and RAM?! bwisit! buti na lang marami kami....</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">monday, ngaun dba? ay kanina pala...ngaun tuesday na... kasi nung sunday, bago ako pumasok sa school, habang nag-aagahan ako, tinanong ako bigla ng mom ko, sabi nya "anak, naguusap pa ba kayo ni abi? nagkikita p b kayo?". im not really comfortable of talking about that, kasi we weren't raised like that... ung family namin eh hindi mcyado open about certain thingskahit papano natutuwa ko kasi hindi un mdalas mangyari, pero lam mo un? i feel really awkward about that situation, kaya tuloy ang initial reaction ko eh ang tumungo at mapipi... after nun, direcho ko sa shower... habang naliligo... wala akong ibang iniisip kundi ung future ko n ksama c abi... na close sila nung mom ko, nag-uusap sila, like a mother and a daughter... bsta...</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">sunday night din pala, nag-inom kami ni doi... astig...emo mode n nman po ako... i ask him something like "ano ung tingin mo sakin mga more than 10 yrs from now?" nagulat ako kasi sabi nya na sa tingin nya eh ako dw eh magiging successful... ngaun pa lang na pinapakita ko daw na ako ay practical sa maraming bagay, madiskarte, at puno ng values eh 4 sure daw eh mararating ko daw ung gusto kong marating... palakpak tenga ako cympre... and its really uplifting na someone believes in you, in your dreams, in your potential... nakaka-overwhelm talaga...thanks doi! ;)</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">nung saturday nman, kami nman nila james at don ung nag-bonding... mejo hindi ako naging komportable sa mga pinag-uusapan nila... cympre kasi High School life... na everybody knows na gusto kong kalimutan na. pero kahit papano eh naka-libre naman ako ng tawa dun sa conversation n un... meron pa rin silang mga ugali na k2lad ng dati na mejo annoying na para sa age naming toh... la nman akong mggwa kasi mga kaibigan ko rin sila...</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">la na...</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">mood: calm but shakes inside...</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;">playing: the juliana theory - is patience still waiting</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;"># of times i viewed chimay's profile: 29 times...(dang! i can't resist her!)</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109872806357859278?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1098299018957075402004-10-21T02:24:00.000+08:002004-10-26T02:57:23.446+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Dami akong tula ngaun na puro tagalog... hehe... i feel hopeless now, and that might be the products of sleepless nights, dreams, caffeine and yes! <a href="http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=12897329">miss chi'may</a>... you may find this stuffs too mushy and corny and so baryotic... think what you want to think... i don't really give a damn...</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">ito muna:</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><em><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Nakatakda na sana ang ating pagkikita <br />Ayos na sa aking pagaakala <br />Handa na sanang harapin ang hirap na maaaring madama <br />At alamin ang kapalaran sa iyong mga mata <br /> <br />Pinaghandaan nga ang araw na ito <br />Hindi man sa engrandeng paraan <br />Libong bagay isinakripisyo naman <br />Na naisip kong mas higit pa sa katangahang ito <br /> <br />Minasdan kita at nakinig <br />Naamoy at nadama ang lamig ng paligid <br />Hindi ko inasahang lumayo ka pa <br />Ngunit nangyari na at wala na <br /> <br />Hindi ko maiwasang magtanong <br />Alamin ang tunay mong pakay at layon <br />Ngunit sa paghahanap ng sagot <br />Mga tanong - naragdagan lang lalo <br /> <br />Mas mahirap pa palang nakikita kita <br />Nagulat ako at bigla na lamang nag-iba <br />Nainis ako ngunit ayos lang <br />Walang sinuman ngayon ang makakahadlang <br /> <br />Ito ang parating sigaw <br />Ng isang taong uhaw na uhaw <br />Sa pag-tingin mo at pag-ibig <br />Ikaw lamang at wala nang iba pang iniisip...</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"></span></em> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">ito pa isa:</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><em><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Ano bang meron sa'yo <br />Kahit nakatangang kasama ka'y <br />Hindi pa rin magawang lumayo <br />Kahit walang buti'y <br />Sige pa rin ako <br /> <br />Ano bang meron ka? <br />Ano itong iniisip? <br />Larawan mo ang nakikita <br />Kahit mata'y nakapikit <br />Katoto, ito pa ba'y tama? </span></em> <br /><em><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"> <br />Ano bang meron sa'yo? <br />Itong nasa sintido ko'y <br />Alisin mo <br />Wag' lamang ilayo <br />Sa akin lang ay itago. <br /> <br />Ano bang meron ka? <br />Sing' liit ng karayom <br />Aking pag-asa <br />Takbo ng oras <br />Kontrolado mo pala <br /> <br />Ano mang meron ka, <br />Sakit sa ulo lamang ang dala <br />Masakit man sa dibdib <br />Ito pa rin ang aking ibig <br />Kahit sino nama'y ako'y isagip!</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"></span></em> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">ito talaga:</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><em><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Gusto kong sabihin ngayon na <br />Natatakot lang ako sa kanya <br />At ayokong isipin niya</span></em> <br /></span></em><em><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">Na mababaw lang ang nadarama <br /> <br />Tatlo ang aking pagkakabilang <br />Ng beses na ginawa ang kahangalan <br />Sa aking pagkakatanda <br />Ako'y lubhang nasaktan <br /> <br />Matagal ring itinigil <br />Ang mga ganitong pagiisip <br />Huli kong naaalala <br />Ay ang una kong pag-ibig <br /> <br />Ang tanging iniisip <br />Ikaw na aking laging panaginip <br />Wala ng iba pang iibigin <br />Kung hindi ikaw binibini.</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"></span></em> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">current song: <em>b.mcknight - anytime</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">glasses of milk: <em>4</em></span><em> </em> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">i feel:<em> like a dumbass!</em></span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109829901895707540?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1097326331008730002004-10-09T19:49:00.000+08:002004-10-13T09:43:13.270+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;">i've talked with an ex last night and we talked about things and stuffs that has been a common topic for about 4 or 5 months now... (that's the time we... yes! broke up...) that span of time has been really hard and not easy for me... i often missed a lot of things about us until this very moment... i told her what i still feel for her... but i guess, that might not get the pieces back together... i know it was not easy for her too, but i know that's what she's been hoping and wishing for... i've been honest with her that i've been trying so hard to forget the feeling, and to "move on.." on her terms, but its just not that easy to forget a feeling that you've been sincere and sure about... its not really that simple to forget a feeling that you want to feel for the rest of your daily existence in this life. even some might say that putting something out of ur mind is the most painful and hurting stage one might go through...*sigh*</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"> <br />i must give a nickname for the person Ang(not her real name) has introduced me, from now on, i'll b calling her chi'may... haha! kinda cheap i know... but her identity must really be concealed until the right time comes... about what i feel for chi'may, i'm really attracted to her... i still don't know her that much, but i really feel something different about her...i know its a bit shallow to feel something deeper for a person that we don't actually know, and i know its kinda cheap again... Ang promised to help and support on the matter, but i don't see it... she keeps on asking me to give her load... duh! haha! anyway, its cute..=) luv u Ang!=) <br /> <br />this matter has really given me sleepless nights, and afternoon headaches... and it sucks! eventhough that's the case.. it still gives the chill and excitement, of..u know?! =) <br /> <br />rEMOmmended: Tokyo Rose <br />current song: learning to breath(switchfoot) <br />bench press: 75 lbs <br />i feel: puzzled...</span> <br /></span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109732633100873000?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1097176087228012752004-10-08T02:50:00.000+08:002004-10-09T12:04:56.603+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">kim introduced me to someone i couldn't imagine she would... her friend added me in friendster, and poof! everything suddenly turned upside down! you probably have no idea how pictures would speak for themselves and say nothing at all... </span> <br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:85%;"></span></em> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><em>A picture says a thousand words</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><em>A cliche may it sound and one might possibly think</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><em>I have six of them in this eternal gaze</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><em>But neither a single verb nor a preposition has been heard.</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><em>Smiles and smirks are common on those portraits</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><em>And one should know - something's hidden behind those grins!</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><em>It held a figure of nothing and everything</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><em>Or a clue if not an illusion</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><em>I see myself in those eyes - maybe the loser or the victor...</em></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;"><em>Certain now I am - someone might sore in this clash!</em></span> <br /><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:85%;"></span></em> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:85%;">current song: they perch on their stilts pointing and daring me (<a href="http://www.saosin.com">saosin</a>)</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:85%;">frappe and espresso: 2.5 cups and 2 shots respectively...</span> <br /><span style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:85%;">mood: torned!</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109717608722801275?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1097013397293396392004-10-06T05:51:00.000+08:002004-10-06T06:28:39.890+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;">sH*t! this is my third try now.. my f*cking pc reboots itself each time i try to save this... i don't know what to write now! pure sH*t!</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"> <br />i have to deal with remembering all the things i wrote that has all been gone electronically.. its freaking 15 minutes to be 5 am now, and I gotta' hurry coz' I still have a class this afternoon, and still have to sleep at least 4 hours... damn! <br /> <br />i'm here again - for the Nth time now, still looking for a cure on my dilemma over sleeping, sounds cliche for the insomniacs, and seems usual to everyone who's hooked in and FOR the net, and more common for... for the people living in frustrations! ...for me it is and it is not... who the hell in the world will dare to speak for himself and say that he would do anything for her* - not to eat, not to SLEEP, not to do his job, not to study?! in this hand, it IS unusual... on the other filthy hand, consider a schoolboy** drowned and blowned up with caffeine on his veins, and frustrations in his head... he in this case can not be considered cliche. now you see what trouble caffeine have had given him, don't ever let this conspiracy of frustrations and caffeine mess yours too...^grins^</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"> <br />i offer my deepest sympathy for the members of famit (not all...) for the impossibility of their yearning and protests for having a high salary and wage they say that must be equal to or at least like in any other country, i know many like me that is on their side (or may be opposite on what I probably think). i saw them Monday wearing a red band in their left arm, symbolizing... I don't know and care really... haha! <br /> <br />legend: <br />*frustrations(practically any thought...); femininity was used to prevent further misconceptions on the latter... <br />**me <br /> <br />rEMOmmended: Watashi Wa <br />current song: monachetti (<a href="www.furtherseemsforever.com">further seems forever</a>) <br />espresso shots: 5.5 (haven't finished my last cuP!)</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109701339729339639?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1096736761930962452004-10-03T01:28:00.000+08:002004-10-06T06:41:03.593+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;">yesterday's saturday and saturday's my last session this week in the gym (yuck! i wish no one cud read this..)haha! its kinda exhausting coz i increased my loads by 5 lbs each exercise, and a freaking 30 lbs for the deadlift (and i think i broke a spine..uhh) ... im really disappointed now coz' even i eat like a pig, i hardly gain any weight...*sighs* <br /></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">this evening, i missed called every exsisting human life form in my phonebook... one significant figure miraculously gave a damn... and it's <a href="http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=5265773">kim</a>! i miss this girl so much na, i still remember when she's so blown up by the tons of alcohol that we plunged into during her 18th birthday...haha! <br /></span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">im hearing: junesong provision</span> <br /><span style="font-family:verdana;">squats: 210 lbs</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109673676193096245?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1096564552045690562004-10-02T06:44:00.000+08:002004-10-02T07:50:02.916+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">for the time i haven't been able to blog of course, i missed draining my head making stories of insignificant events and experiences... i missed talking about my unparalleled misadventures, and of course, who will defy and dare not to remember the <em>legend of the bakya</em>! <br /> <br />these are some of my headlines for the past 12 weeks that hasnt been published: <br /> <br />- frustrations of playing and making music grows more <br />- frustrations of gaining weight, still a frustration <br />- started eating 5-6 times a day, but still nothing's happening <br />- finally, i have my own space! <br />- frightened of failing all my subjects; not anymore, coz i've passed all o'them!haha! <br />- made it out again w/o the commitment! <br />- i thought i WANT to get over her, but NO i wont get over her! <br />- sexy new pc! <br />- stupid MAPUA, they dnt know that they're doing! <br />- joined a petty org.. <br />- frustrations of joining the mountaineering club, still a frustration too.. <br />- enjoyed NCAA that i didnt during my early years in college.. <br /> <br />there, i guess there's still many more; i'll post it later na lang.. <br /> <br />current song: <a href="http://www.saosin.com">saosin</a> - seven years <br />espresso shots: bout 4?</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109656455204569056?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1096391851627087802004-09-29T01:56:00.000+08:002004-10-02T07:44:37.550+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">more or less 3 months? that's the last time i give damn about blogs... i still check my account here every week but thinking of something to write is pure pain in the ass! that past 12 weeks of hibernation lets me deal with sick professors and self-centered colleagues; lots of new things had came to pass by my dull existence in that protracted time; i also met a lot of new people and a bunch of old foes too... now i'm back to zero once more... farewell.. <br /> <br />currently playing: the twisted nails of faith(cradle of filth) <br />mood: frightened</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-109639185162708780?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1089368247048772992004-07-09T17:22:00.001+08:002004-10-02T07:45:58.963+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">haven't done something for quite a while now... anyway, the story of gandhi tuazon continues... di lang pala VIVA Hot Babe ang nakita nila doon, they also met two aussie chics, and guess what our hero did to one of the aussie? they kissed! yes! they shared a kiss! iba na talaga ang nagagawa ng alcohol sa katawan.. at di lang yun, he barely remember the face of the two aussie... unfortunately, he wasn't able to get the #... and his other tropa took advantage of our heroes groginess... at cya na ung sumalo dun sa chic... hehe.. <br /> <br />currently playing: a perfect circle - orestes <br />espresso shots: 2</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108936824704877299?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1089379125406673032004-07-06T22:32:00.000+08:002004-10-02T07:46:51.796+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">its been a long exhausting tuesday, kinda cool, no! freezing! coz it started very late.. and its really unusual for me to have a nice day starting late.. i went to makati to fix something about my enrolment tomorrow.. i did partly finish what i'm suppose to fix.. partly bcoz im suppose to go to school to entirely finish whatever that thing is.. i didn't coz its raining heavily and i have to walk a mile just to get a jeep... so i changed my plan... i went to glorietta and have a moccha frappe at mccafe first, then to powerbooks at greenbelt to look for some good books... i found "the river piedra..." by paulo coelho... ive been looking for this book for some time now... and now, its in front of my face... i immediately seek for a place where i can sit, relax, and enjoy the book.. and that would be the children's books section! after some 5 hours of reading..i did finished the 150+ pages of that book.. what's bad in doin that continous reading is ur definetely have a headache!</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108937912540667303?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1088734982493751632004-07-02T10:11:00.000+08:002004-10-02T07:47:37.576+08:00<span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">finally! school's over! now i'm gonna think of the things i should be doin' this term break... <em>even if it's only a week or so?</em> <br />i and julius reyes had finished our <em>differential equations</em> exam, unfortunately our other friend </span><a href="http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=2216093"><span style="font-family:verdana;"><span style="font-size:85%;"><em>gandhi tuazon</em> </span></span></a><span style="font-family:verdana;font-size:85%;">wasn't able to make it... <em>but he got an exciting story to tell:</em> last night his friend (i forgot the name) came by in his apartment at vito cruz to invite him to hangout and party at greenbelt... <em>poor gandhi, he can't turn down the invite even he has two finals the next day<...tsk, tsk, tsk...</em> now drunk and intoxicated with alcohol, he danced-till-he-drop... while doin his moves, he saw a familiar chubby chic dancing oppposite him... he cleared his blurry eyes and he was right, it was someone familiar! wanna know who was it? it was <em><a href="http://img78.photobucket.com/albums/v321/patrick49/KatyaSantos24-A.jpg">katya santos</a>!</em> she was wet and wild dancing and trampling with another VIVA Hot Babe! maybe that was exactly the reason why gandhi was late for school and wasn't able to take the finals... poor, poor gandhi...we didn't tell him that anyone who fails to take the finals could mean a 5.0 - he might get hurt if we tell him...poor dude... if i was his prof, i would allow this excuse... lolz! <br /> <br />wondering about the subject? it was last night that i was treated like a guinea pig by my sister...my sister was studyin her fundamentals of nursing... and i was her <em>guinea pig</em> and do stuffs like measuring my liver by percussioning my abdomen, checked for lymph nodes around my neck, checked my tonsil and uvula and lots of other stuffs... it was fun coz' we got some quality time together...=) <br /> <br />*just as i finished this blog, my account expired and have to log in again... Alas! when i pressed the back button... my work has gone! thanks to my key logger for abling me to retrieve this post.. *sigh!* <br /> <br />currently playing: ganja bus (cypress hill) <br />shots of espresso: 2 (aga pa eh!) <br />mood: hungry!</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108873498249375163?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1088628708328879282004-07-01T02:59:00.000+08:002004-07-01T04:51:48.326+08:00totally hilarious! last night (tuesday night), im working offline on IE.. i was looking for the blog of my sister (coz i love her writing skills).. while skimming on the page history, i found other blogs of her barkadas and schoolmates in UP..i was really fascinated coz' these folks were really veterans and experts in making blogs.. my blog's just a <em>recycle bin</em> compared to their creatively made blogs.. <em>im just a newbie here so no one can blame me?!</em> lolz! finally, i found her blog.. i read all of her archives and just as what im expecting, it was a lot of fun, particularly when im involved in her stories.. one blog upsets me though..she said something like "only three people surely loves me, my dad, my mom..and the other one,im not sure..". definitely that was me! she doesn't have a boyfriend now, so im sure that was me! Gawd!what made her think that i didn't love her? of course, i love her! she's my only sister.. il always be a fan of hers, and im proud of her! =) <br /> <br />*im pissed for what ive read in the log of my key logger.. my pup's very disappointing!!! <br /> <br />espresso shots today: 6 <br />currently playing: be quiet and drive (deftones) <br />mood: super sleepy<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108862870832887928?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1088498367193430722004-06-29T15:39:00.000+08:002004-07-01T02:48:42.443+08:00i know im gonna be sick and that's because of the monsoon.. thank <em>God</em> my final exam's over.. <br /> <br />this morning, im reading our school's <a href="http://tnb.mapua.edu.ph/"><em>official publication</em></a>, im a little bit annoyed coz' this paper encompassed mainly of personal opinions of writers and staffs (almost 3 quarters of that paper is <em>opinion section</em> - which doesn't really have to do with the welfare of students) its not right! it should be and must incorporate stuff's w/c interests students.. its kinda infuriating coz' the writers's opinions doesn't really make sense.. i have read these kinds of writings since i'm studying high school.. and thought of it as <em>kids immaturish stuffs</em>.. can it be something new? this paper isn't a publication at all.. if they feel like doin this personalized paper don't have them posted in a college paper..please? <br /> <br />this afternoon, i called another <a href="http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=4772713"><em>bitch</em></a>... and made an attempt to booty call on her.. but unfortunately she seemed not interested and hasn't have the mood.. and said "call me another time"..i didn't exert more effort other than that.. <br /> <br />i remembered someone i and doi saw last sunday, she passed by us when we're hanging out outside our village..she caught my eyes, and something in my spine tells me to have a second look.. that's the first time i laid my eyes on her and i know she lives in our village (im cartain!), and i should do something... my instincts tells me where to find that girl..and i did find her! i went to the place where i can find her..(still not sure, if she's there..) but my instincts right! i did saw her there! she saw me first.. and just as my eyes saw her in sight (hands' shaking) she smiled at me.. i didn't expected that smile (but i know she will)i returned the smile and asked myself: "are you sure you're smiling at me?" woohooo!!! that's certainly heart melting! <br /> <br />peace guys!=)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108849836719343072?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1088341292650724532004-06-27T20:08:00.000+08:002004-06-29T17:10:19.306+08:00SAT <br />*yawn* this weekend is not my kind of weekend im dreaming of.. its something that i could go outdoors, relax..have a massage, go rock climbing, fishing, go partying? but this weekend i did nothing, i eat, i sleep, i blog..nothing more nothing less! oh...i did do something..i watch <em>Psycho II</em> last night @ cinemax..and stayed up late for that reason..and still can't figure out how'll i cure my caffein induced sleep.. <br /> <br />SUN <br />two friends came by this afternoon..my bestfriend <em><a href="http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=4034099">doi</a></em> came first, i remember his brother cado(my schoolmate) borrowed my technical pen set, and probably doi was sent by cado to have it. i was startled coz' i didn't expected him.. anyway, he came and saved me from the boredness occuring to me..haha! anyway, since i dont no what to study first for my final exams tomorrow, we made our mind up to go to <em><a href="http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=7043388">ethel's</a></em> house (doi's ex) to return the book i borrowed last two weeks...i did returned the book but unfortunately her mother told us that her daughter was sleeping, so doi and i decided to tambay first and chat for a while...while doi and i were together, <em><a href="http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=2989358">james</a></em> came by our house..unfortunately im not home.. he just came by to catch up with things also..=)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108834129265072453?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1088073265336456462004-06-24T17:52:00.000+08:002004-06-24T18:43:16.363+08:00i woke up early and rushed to turn on the PC for no particular reason..i was dumbfounded when my uncle dropped by our house and asked me if i can go accompany him to tagaytay to buy some cow stuff. i thinked twice b4 agreeing..and still not certain if il agree or not? since i have no classes 2day (its Manila Day), and since i yearn for some alterations of my daily dose of life, and since i haven't been there in a while i agreed and said yes. an answer il regret afterwards.. tagaytay's not a long way frm pacita, just an hour and a half of driving so i assumed that we'll be back early.. <br /> <br />on our way there, it runs smoothly, the weather's nice, no trace of cloud predicting a rain, and we arrived there in no time.. contrasting to what ive said, its drizzling, windy and chilling there in tagaytay, i started to be annoyed coz we didnt bring a coat or an umbrella..and we still have to walk a yard or two to get a jeep routed to the mahogany market (where cow meat is cheap).. now wet, chilling, and feeling sick, i just wanted to go home and sleep..but there's still a long way to get back...=(<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108807326533645646?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-10878435297560392004-06-21T22:03:00.000+08:002004-06-24T16:54:18.960+08:00it annoys me when im late (who doesn't?anyway? )or the othr way..i mean being so early..i have a deadline today..ive been busy doing the crap whole weekend for me to meet that silly deadline..i even came late to class so that crap wud be a perfect shit..and guess what? after all the time and work ive spent on that particular shit.. my prof moved the deadline until wednesday..(Thank U VERY Much!) <br /> <br />i remember myself laughin very much today..u hav an idea? but i wish i cud be like this everyday..=) i think there's really no reason for me to be emoshitty at all.. i still hav HER (we're friends yes! haha..i know we cud stil work things out..=) <br /> <br />anyways..the issue in our house still becomes worse.. <div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-1087843529756039?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1087694288561572112004-06-20T09:17:00.000+08:002004-06-24T16:59:01.386+08:00ive been thinkin my teacher angie, she handles my socio class... im not certain bout how i feel for her..but i really have an eye for her and i definitely like her.. she's in her late 40's or early 50's i guess? but dont look like one..she got naive eyes that is remarkable for a chinese blood..she got chubby white, rosy cheeks and are really cute..nevermind her belly and some early signs of mild scoliosis in her..=) <br /> <br />she's no ordinary teacher, i mean she's really different! her life was an open book for us to browse anytime we want.. we know she has 2 college studs..we know she has been separated w/ her husband and that they have no chance to be together again...we know that her college son will have a child soon.. and loads of other personal stuffs.. <br /> <br />i hate her sometimes specially when she has new "chismis" to talk about..she knows all the facts and fictions (and even other personal stuffs about other teachers!) lurking all over mapua, inclusive of mitc.. and quite pissed w/ her sometimes... <br /> <br />what we like most about her is her mother-like approach in her teachings..i for one had daydreamed about her..and if i have given the chance to choose to be born again, i most likely wish for her to be my mother...=) <br /> <br />she's really easy to be with, she sets no barriers w/ her teacher-student relations... we're so close to her, we can talk anything and everything w/out certain limitations like others.. i simply really love her! she's the best teacher i ever had! she's the best teacher ive had since i stepped in mapua.. <br /> <br />i wonder bout her daughter? is she like her mom? =)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108769428856157211?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1087694218237486712004-06-19T22:16:00.000+08:002004-06-24T17:11:56.146+08:00ive finally met this bitch im talkin about.. as all bitch do.. they of course will in any means possible flirt with you.. and who might not give in? im just a guy, ryt? i just feel cheap for what we did..=( thank God that THING didn't happened..getting rid of that filth will be the next step.. <br /> <br />relaxed for the meantime but still worrying for things i have to do (research, homeworks, defense, quizes..endless!) ...and still cant be hooked in the internet bec. of this worm in my pc..another annoying day! <br /> <br />as always..gona sleep @ about 3:00 am..=) bye!<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108769421823748671?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1087691847350171032004-06-16T20:33:00.000+08:002004-06-25T18:51:39.156+08:00ughhhh!!! i stil haven't done anything about my caffein induced sleep! i stil haven't have a good sleep since last week! i worry too much! i think too much! i work too much! i slumber late - i ascend early..so pathetic! <br />my body's overfatigued with useless efforts.. with pointless force which is actually not laudable of my worrying at all...ahhh!!! <br /> <br />i started doin my reports late because of this bitch seducing me every night..of course..who might not give in? im just an ordinary mortal with an appetite in sexual affairs...we finished late leaving me no choice but to suffer the consequences... <br /> <br />my tragedies doesn't end there, another nut for me to crack is my dad..i can't figure out why my blood boils when i see him? <br /> <br />i finished my work about 5:00 am..and tried to sleep ..it was stupid for me to think that i can sleep for 45 min and wake up by at least 6:00(my classes starts at 8:00)..of course, my body really needs the rest and fortunately he got what he wants! it was damn annoying when i woke up 8..and hurried myself for school.. <br /> <br />now im STILL here in school <br /> <br />please feed me here, please fill me up...please pacify this angst i fumbled in...oh good Lord i need ur comfort.. <br /> <br />oh and i can't forget how many ass ive bumped in today..haha! <br /> <br />*still figuring out what are blogs for?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108769184735017103?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1087694165829835632004-06-12T00:15:00.000+08:002004-06-24T17:15:09.513+08:00rmmember buddha's enlightnment? <br />>oh yes?! <br /> <br />i think il goin 2 b a follower... <br />u think its a bad idea? <br />>not sure.. <br /> <br />*my first here..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108769416582983563?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6811297.post-1082566754980283972004-04-22T00:58:00.000+08:002004-06-29T18:46:31.296+08:00what exactly is a blog?<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6811297-108256675498028397?l=balloon-sanctuary.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Pihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13446810780227296725noreply@blogger.com