the new guy

he hasn't been really contented in his life. in one way or another, there's always something missing, something that isn't in the right place. his life has always its dilemma, but luckily, he still had a grasp on that. what pisses him off was this problem of recurrence, it upsets him because these problems have always been followed by another trouble -- it always has an after shock. he knows the fact that life isn't perfect. he knows what to do in almost all situations. he rarely gave up in any obstacle that comes along in every walks of his life. but then, he woke up one day realizing something he himself has never thought of. he thought and realized that he isn't a kid anymore. he's been wondering exactly what's going on with himself lately. well, he must not poke at it too much. he might want it to consider it the heavenly equivalent of winning the lottery and simply enjoy it. he can talk with literally anyone now about literally anything, and make it look easy. that goes double for his communication with friends and colleagues -- especially the ones he's interested in for more than their memos. isn't it right? change could be so indistinguishable that you'll wake up one day realizing you're not the same anymore?