the matter gives me afternoon headaches...

i've talked with an ex last night and we talked about things and stuffs that has been a common topic for about 4 or 5 months now... (that's the time we... yes! broke up...) that span of time has been really hard and not easy for me... i often missed a lot of things about us until this very moment... i told her what i still feel for her... but i guess, that might not get the pieces back together... i know it was not easy for her too, but i know that's what she's been hoping and wishing for... i've been honest with her that i've been trying so hard to forget the feeling, and to "move on.." on her terms, but its just not that easy to forget a feeling that you've been sincere and sure about... its not really that simple to forget a feeling that you want to feel for the rest of your daily existence in this life. even some might say that putting something out of ur mind is the most painful and hurting stage one might go through...*sigh*

i must give a nickname for the person Ang(not her real name) has introduced me, from now on, i'll b calling her chi'may... haha! kinda cheap i know... but her identity must really be concealed until the right time comes... about what i feel for chi'may, i'm really attracted to her... i still don't know her that much, but i really feel something different about her...i know its a bit shallow to feel something deeper for a person that we don't actually know, and i know its kinda cheap again... Ang promised to help and support on the matter, but i don't see it... she keeps on asking me to give her load... duh! haha! anyway, its cute..=) luv u Ang!=)

this matter has really given me sleepless nights, and afternoon headaches... and it sucks! eventhough that's the case.. it still gives the chill and excitement, of..u know?! =)

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current song: learning to breath(switchfoot)
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i feel: puzzled...