Noooooooooo Waaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!!!

totoong journal na ung pinagkakaabalahan ko ngayon, kaya you might find that i'll be posting here once in a while na lang...

un nga! last night ulit! i called her na naman... not realizing again the consequences, the phone bills that might reach a couple of K's, dang! nakaka-addict naman kasi siya eh! t*ngna! mahal ko na ata siya?! tapos sabi pa ata nya na napapatawa ko na siya (w/c is quite obvious during our conversations) yan tuloy naging cripple na naman ako... disabling myself to think and do straight thinking... ang malupit pa nun eh... never mind na lang... (dun ko n lang isusulat sa journal)... ako naman si tanga, expecting na she'll text me, ayun! naghintay sa wala! i later realize that she can really be accessible pag kausap mo, pero when we're not, as if she has her own world, a world w'c i really don't exist... ahhh! Love! you had me again! cupid's bow had me struck BIG time!!! my sense of practicallity has now been starting to self-destruct... dang! i hate my self for this, but i equally like her... dang! which is which? what is what? Ahhh! Love!~