i'm a loner baby...

apocalypse!

Enjoy today - it may be your last.

You heard me. Thanks to the foolishness of various world leaders, the world is spiralling into a heartless void of painful oblivion. Governments are secretly pitted against governments; international terrorist organisations are remixing the geopolitical landscape to introduce their own hardcore sounds.

The result, surely, is widespread nuclear badness. Society as we know it will be ripped apart by the bomb - but some brave people will survive. Could you be one of them? Could you?

Yes, enjoy today. You will never know freedom again.

u won't believe this!

ain't in a writing mood these past few weeks coz' its been a holy week?! i'll just leave you this...

Today was really awful.
I got out of bed because I had to throw up. I'm really sick. I mean REALLY sick.
I just feel good because today I'll have my lip pierced! Finally! Mom said I could and she's signed the forms and EVERYTHING!
I'm so hardcore. Me and Buzz went to the mall today, and I stole a whole heap of stuff. I got a Co & Ca CD, a couple of DVDs and some new Chucks. Buzz got caught, but he fought his way out, and then we stole some lady's car and smashed it into a phone booth. So damn Rock!
Last night I had to go and pay Joshua's bail. He's such a jerk. He got arrested for punching the Walmart clerk in the face for refusing to sell him beer. He's only 16!
I want to tell the world that I love you all! You're all so special to me!
I am sharpening my knives before I go to work today, because I'm going to cut out Robert's heart and feed it to him for losing my mail.
Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! But I don't know how to work it. I'll pay a hundred bucks to anyone who can help me...
I want to say thanks to the world for absolutely fucking nothing! You all suck. I feel so alone, no one ever reads this journal, or even comments to let me know that I'm not suffering alone. It's cold here, and I want to die, but I cannot figure out how many of you to take with me when I go.
I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have prostate cancer, which makes me different enough to be interesting, but the same as all the other cool people with cancer! And bipolar disorder.
I haven't been really contented in this life. In one way or another, there's always something missing, something that isn't in the right place. This life has always its dilemma, but I still had a grasp on that, but it's always followed by another trouble – always has an after shock. I know the fact that life isn't perfect. Geez... Life's a living hell!
That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm hardcore!

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andami-dami na namang nangyayari, karamihan bago... sunod-sunod na ung mga pangyayari, mahirap na habulin para isulat pa... eto ung ilan sa mga yun...

*naging mas close kami ni kuya luis
*naging mas close kami ni JE
*naging honest ako kay JE
*parang nabawasan ung closeness namin ni JE
*malayan na talaga ang mapua
*kabisado ko na lahat ng modes ng scaling sa gitara (Aeolian, Dorian, etc...)
*nakakapag-compo na ko ng mga guitar solo
*halos 500 na ung utang ko sa iba't-ibang tao, 20 kay rapi, 150 kay gaddi, 295 kay kuya luis... tsk, tsk, tsk...
*naghahanap ako ng kakaibang gift
*alam ko na ung cycle ni JE( kailangan p b tlga?)
*malamang bumagsak ako sa signals
*nasakin ung project namin sa Electronics na amp, gusto ko i-testing, kaya lang ala akong electric guitar...
*last week na namin sa school... magbabakasyon na kami! kahit 1 buwan ayos lang!
*di ko pa rin sure kung mag-eenrol ako next term...
*mag-aaply kami ni kuya luis sa isang call center sa buendia
*kailangan ko ng maraming pera... pambayad ng utang, pambili ng regalo, pang-kain ng marami, pambili ng weights, pambayad sa rent ng boarding house, pambili ng pantalon, ng matinong jacket sa ukay-ukay, ng magandang sneakers... at marami pang iba sana...
*kailangan ko rin ng phone... kasi wala akong ginagamit ngayon...
*bisita namin sila gebi nung thursday (march 10)... nag-treat kasi si kuya luis... tahimik lang ako... labas-pasok sa kwarto... napansin ni gebi... tinanong ako kung san ako galing... di ko alam ang isasagot... gusto kong mag-usap kami, pero natahimik lang ako...
*kailangang lumakas ung loob ko sa mga bagay-bagay...
*kailangan kong galingan sa lahat...